smallworld
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Praeda,
I've copied your response to someone else's thread and started a new thread for you so we could properly welcome you. Just want you to know you're not alone in your feelings and you'll find a lot of support here.
I've copied your response to someone else's thread and started a new thread for you so we could properly welcome you. Just want you to know you're not alone in your feelings and you'll find a lot of support here.
Hi, there. I'm new to this place. I really needed someone to talk to I have a 15 year old son who has asperger's syndrome. He rages. He hurts my feelings on a daily basis. No, doesn't hurt my feelings -- CRUSHES my feelings. He has zero empathy, no understanding, rages at the slightest provocation, can't maintain a normal school life. School. Well, there's a whole topic in itself. Phone calls almost daily: "Did you know your child did this? What are we going to do with your child?" I'm so tired of being judged, so tired of going the 110 percent for this kid, with zero in return. I can't hug him. He stiffens and pulls away. If he catches me looking at him, he FREAKS OUT. He is messy to the nth degree. Unbelievable actually. His thing is music. He's a very, very talented musician. No lessons. Couldn't get him there ... traditional music teaching didn't work. The kid plays heavy metal guitar like a genius ... no kidding ... however he plays it LOUD, every second he's home. I hate being his parent (the thread I picked up on in this) seems to be a theme in my life this summer. I want a kid that loves me. I like to hug. He does have an older brother that does like to hug and does love me (thank God), and this brother my Asperger child continually rips off (no boundaries with this kid either), ruins his things, trades them away ... no respect for anything ... despite my huge efforts at teaching respect. Of course, no one believes that. I am pretty much labelled a terrible mom at our high school. I now have him in alternate school with a teacher who specializes in "tough to reach kids". He just started the last half of last year and it went fairly well, which, for Clayton, is only getting kicked out of school once a month, rather than every week. No exaggeration. No kidding. I am absolutely praying on this school. I desperately need a break. Sorry. I really needed someone to talk to, I needed to vent. I'm hoping I'm not the only mom in the universe who is having such a remarkably horrible time raising the baby I brought into this world with so much love and so much hope for the future. I do love him, I just don't like him very much right now. Does that make sense? Thank you for letting me vent.