first of all it was a really wild psychiatrist appointment. they come in and take my blood pressure and in one arm it was 150/110 which freaked both the nurse and I out so she took it in the other arm and it wasnt much better at 150/100. I really dont know what had my BiPolar (BP) up so badly today but it was. I have noticed it has been creeping up over the past week but it over the past week but it has never been this high in my life. My BiPolar (BP) has always been perfect at 120/70. One funny thing was while I was in the office waiting to be seen someone pulled the fire alarm! We all had to go traipsing outside into the cold rainy mist and walk around to the parking lot in that mess to meet up with everyone else so could all co back into our rooms. They finally gave me my medications after making sure I would stop at my primary doctor on the way home but told me I was under doctor's orders to tell tony he now has to pick between his alive brother and a very sick or dead wife. My psychiatrist was extremely concerned. She was so worried she almost wanted to put me in the hospital there and then but I told her I wasnt from that city. I went to my regular gp and was seen just a few minutes later and my BiPolar (BP) was much lower...130/72. Whew! However, I am not going to tell Tony that. He was very worried when he heard about the high BiPolar (BP) so Im gonna let him think I have it. Im gonna let him go on thinking it is a choice between his brother being here and me getting sick and possibly dying because that could possibly be the truth at any time anyway. He needs to worry and stop expecting me to do everything for Buck. I mean why on earth should I be the one to fill out all the paperwork for him anyway? He says he can read and write so do it for heavens sake! I dont give a rat's behind if my handwriting his nicer. I had to fill out all the paperwork for myself when I applied for Social Security, let him do it for himself. Also Tony is still after him to go find work which we are absolutely sure he isnt. He is also after me to get him a birth certificate but I cant do it without a copy of his drivers license and he had the perfect opportunity yesterday. Almost makes me wonder if he went to the appointment. He was supposed to go yesterday to an appointment to be assessed at a mental health center. I know they would have made a copy of his drivers license there just as a routine procedure to make sure of who he was. I told him to ask them to make him another copy for him to bring home to me to send off. He didnt. They would have done it with no problem. He told me he simply forgot because they asked him so many questions and he has two appts to go back...one with the doctor and one with this woman. I do find that interesting. They obviously found something interesting enough that they want to have the doctor see him. That must mean most likely clinically significant and maybe an axis 1 and/or axis 2. Im still going with Dependent Personality Disorder. I have no clue how to work with that. All I know is we have to get rid of him before he sucks the life out of us. Or kills me in the process. Just because I have managed to get my BiPolar (BP) down right now doesnt mean it will stay down. Right now Tony is having me stay calm and telling me to do everything I can to remain stress free. He is having Buck not put any salt on foods before we eat them and let me salt my food after I taste it...lol. Good, no more chance of him putting junk into foods.