This past week I've been a mess. My Grandma died on 12/22 and it's just hitting me (I guess), my uncle died on 12/25 as well (but I wansn't close to him like I was my Grandma). husband went away this weekend to the local hot springs with some friends, and although he didn't think about me, he could have never known how bad I was and how bad E was before leaving. Eris has been a total nightmare for the past week (including school, Monday she kicked a boy, yesterday she got sent to the principals office for something else, she upset her aide one day too). This weekend was horrible. It did not help that I forgot to take my medications 3 days in a row! husband left Sat morning, I really needed to just be alone and not be a parent. Eris seemed to know this and was extra clingy. Instead of watching TV, playing in her room, etc she had to get into everything, pull out suitcases from my closet, take out my shoes, the plant dropped and spilled dirt everywhere (not her fault). Basically there was stuff everywhere and I didn't have the energy to deal with it. We did have a tea party (because she insisted on taking out my other grandma's china cups), I played along to keep her occupied but she insisted on using the cups all weekend. She was hitting me over something (not getting her way, but I can't remember what it was) and that turned into a big fight and I put her in the shower to calm her down which just upset her more (but at least she left me alone for a whopping 30 min while she avoided me in her room). She wouldn't go to bed until 10:30 on Sat (and only because I gave her a melatonin), got up at 7:30 on Sunday and sat on my bed playing with the cat. I was actually pushing her to get out of my bed, go in her room and let me sleep another hour (I went to bed about midnight because I wanted to finish a movie uninterrupted). She refused to leave or at least be quiet and lay on the bed with me. I got up, cleaned up the house some and just dealt with her until husband got home that afternoon. But of course his friends hang out until late, we live in an apt that doesn't have anywhere to escape from. I'm the one that works, husband is a SAHD, but I'm also the one that cooks because he's not good at that. The last two nights I've made him make dinner and have tried to rest in my room, write on my computer, just be in my own head and either Eris or husband has to bug me every 5 minutes. husband will not stop talking so often, and as much as it bugs, I know he needs the adult time too. I just need him to shut up sometimes!! I KNOW it's me, but it seems like when I need "me" time the most is when Eris acts the worst. I want to know what some of you do when your kids is not at their best and you aren't either and you need some space. I realized today that this weekend is a 3 day weekend for me so the only thing I could think of is to take Eris out of the house one day and do things *I* want to do that she would enjoy (but I'm stuck with limited money and expired tags on the truck, I don't want to risk it getting towed in the city), but if I could do that I could get husband to take her out one day too. husband's friend keeps promising a tattoo and this might be a good weekend for that, a catharsis. I don't want to spend money doing girly stuff (and live in an area those services are higher priced). I don't want to sit around the house veging. Most of my friends live over an hour away and I don't have anybody local I can just go hang out with. Please give me some cheap or free suggestions for helping me get my head back together. Something out of the box.