Californiablonde
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My daughter has been over 18 for quite some time now. In December she turns 20. After all those years of being (thankfully) medication compliant for the most part, she is now picking and choosing which medications she takes. I don't just mean her psychiatric medications. She is also pre diabetic, is on her way to developing full blown diabetes, and won't take her afternoon dose of Metformin.
She always complains she is dizzy and weak and her blood sugar is low, then demands I get her some type of dessert. She doesn't get it. We went to her nutritionist over the summer, and she once again explained to my daughter that she needs to steer clear of any sugar, substitute sugar, and processed food. As long as she takes her Metformin, her blood sugar shouldn't be an issue.
Meanwhile, all of her doctors have been pushing her to lose weight, which isn't happening, because she barely eats during the day and binge eats at night, mostly when I'm sleeping. It doesn't matter what kind of food I keep in the house. She will eat gobs of bread or huge slices of cheese or anything she can get her hands on.
Now she is refusing some of her psychiatric medications, namely her mood stabilizer, because she doesn't like the side effects. As for now, her doctor doesn't want to try her on anything new. He wants her to stick it out with the Lamictal. So now she is rapid cycling and it's crazy. Some nights she doesn't sleep at all and is very manic, mean and very nasty. Some days she is depressed and wants nothing but sleep. I have learned to detach over the years when it comes to her moods, but that doesn't mean I have to put up with screaming and cussing either.
Not to mention she has heart problems. She has tachycardia which is a abnormally high pulse rate, and her doctor so concerned that she sent her to a cardiologist. She went to one appointment, they did an EKG which was normal, then told her to come back for more appointments because there are still many tests that need to be run. The cardiologist told her bluntly that with her heart problems her heart could suddenly stop and she can drop dead at any time.
Not enough to scare my daughter. She has missed every single cardiology appointment since. Telling her she could be in serious trouble or even die it not enough to wake her up. She insists she would love to die young rather than being on this hellish earth. In June she attempted suicide by trying to swallow a bottle of pills. My son, of all people, talked her down from it. We saw her doctor immediately, and he didn't take her seriously. I thought for sure he would put her on a mandatory 72 hour hold, but he didn't. All he did was tell her to keep taking her Lamictal, which she doesn't want to do.
I am fed up, scared, and don't know what to do anymore. My daughter has finally gotten a little bit of ambition and decided to try and get her high school diploma at her old continuation school. I am thrilled she actually wants to do something with her life, besides wasting it away, but right now with all of her mental and physical problems, I'm not sure how she is going to make it. She starts back at the high school next week, and they are legally obligated to keep her there until she is 22 because she is SPED.
Maybe she will do a big turn around and pleasantly surprise us all. I can only hope. My main concern right now is her physical health, which she is choosing to leave untreated. Every day I stop home on my lunch break and find her sleeping, and I have to check and see if she is still breathing. I am worried that one day she will suddenly pass, and I will feel guilty I didn't do more to stop it. But what do you do when your child stops caring about her health? I'm at a loss.
She always complains she is dizzy and weak and her blood sugar is low, then demands I get her some type of dessert. She doesn't get it. We went to her nutritionist over the summer, and she once again explained to my daughter that she needs to steer clear of any sugar, substitute sugar, and processed food. As long as she takes her Metformin, her blood sugar shouldn't be an issue.
Meanwhile, all of her doctors have been pushing her to lose weight, which isn't happening, because she barely eats during the day and binge eats at night, mostly when I'm sleeping. It doesn't matter what kind of food I keep in the house. She will eat gobs of bread or huge slices of cheese or anything she can get her hands on.
Now she is refusing some of her psychiatric medications, namely her mood stabilizer, because she doesn't like the side effects. As for now, her doctor doesn't want to try her on anything new. He wants her to stick it out with the Lamictal. So now she is rapid cycling and it's crazy. Some nights she doesn't sleep at all and is very manic, mean and very nasty. Some days she is depressed and wants nothing but sleep. I have learned to detach over the years when it comes to her moods, but that doesn't mean I have to put up with screaming and cussing either.
Not to mention she has heart problems. She has tachycardia which is a abnormally high pulse rate, and her doctor so concerned that she sent her to a cardiologist. She went to one appointment, they did an EKG which was normal, then told her to come back for more appointments because there are still many tests that need to be run. The cardiologist told her bluntly that with her heart problems her heart could suddenly stop and she can drop dead at any time.
Not enough to scare my daughter. She has missed every single cardiology appointment since. Telling her she could be in serious trouble or even die it not enough to wake her up. She insists she would love to die young rather than being on this hellish earth. In June she attempted suicide by trying to swallow a bottle of pills. My son, of all people, talked her down from it. We saw her doctor immediately, and he didn't take her seriously. I thought for sure he would put her on a mandatory 72 hour hold, but he didn't. All he did was tell her to keep taking her Lamictal, which she doesn't want to do.
I am fed up, scared, and don't know what to do anymore. My daughter has finally gotten a little bit of ambition and decided to try and get her high school diploma at her old continuation school. I am thrilled she actually wants to do something with her life, besides wasting it away, but right now with all of her mental and physical problems, I'm not sure how she is going to make it. She starts back at the high school next week, and they are legally obligated to keep her there until she is 22 because she is SPED.
Maybe she will do a big turn around and pleasantly surprise us all. I can only hope. My main concern right now is her physical health, which she is choosing to leave untreated. Every day I stop home on my lunch break and find her sleeping, and I have to check and see if she is still breathing. I am worried that one day she will suddenly pass, and I will feel guilty I didn't do more to stop it. But what do you do when your child stops caring about her health? I'm at a loss.