difficult child continues to have headaches. Taking excedrin migraine, advil and on the more painful ones Tylenol #3. Took the last two of those last night. He also isn't feeling well. Says he can't explain it, doesn't feel "right". Sick. Stomach upset too. Talked to his doctors Thursday for about 45 minutes. Nurse went over all the blood work that has now been back. Everything is normal. She said the doctor still suggests Childrens Hospital in Milwuakee. I just don't want to do that. He has done this all before. All the tests and always normal. She then asked if he is under any stress. Said the stress could cause the headaches, but unrelated to his back pain. She asked if he has any anxiety. If his mind is going all the time in all different directions this could cause headaches. Well, obviously you can see right here this is a new doctor/nurse. The others all know him. His mind is ALWAYS going. He worries about absolutely everything. His anxiety levels are extremely high. Nurse suggested counseling. Tried that SO many times. difficult child refuses. Nurse suggested psychiatrist. Have one. It is hard to see him in pain and not feeling well. I am afraid I have caused all of this. When I hear from school he hasn't done his work, after he told me he did, I get so angry. He yells at me because he hates doing work. I yell back and then just lose it. The other day this happened. We were just going at it. I lost it and said many things I shouldn't of. I told him I cannot do this anymore. He promised new school, would do good. No more lies. I told him to just quit. I cannot do this. I told him if he doesn't want to do it don't...quit. difficult child then calls easy child. All of a sudden I start getting these awful text messages from easy child. Saying what an awful parent I am, how bad I am, how I told both my boys they were failures. But he can handle it and difficult child is only 13. I think he texted me every 15 minutes for two hours with a new comment about what an awful parent I am. All I wrote him back was he wasn't there and he has no idea what is going on. Also that I never told either boy they were failures. He hasn't talked to me since. I think he believes this. So now I feel like I should just pack my bags and move across the country all by myself. They obviously don't want me in their lives. I have fought for both of them, stood by them, supported them. Apparently I am the cause of everything.