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flutterbee
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A lot of things have changed since I started getting sick several years ago, but here goes....
My house was always spotless. A place for everything and everything in its place. I couldn't go to bed at night if anything was out of place. Even if Wynter's dad hadn't been a jerk in all the other ways, that would have led to divorce. It was hell in my last house because it just wasn't big enough and there wasn't enough storage. I don't miss it. At all. My mom would come visit and start putting things places and I'd follow behind her and fix them. Now, since I've been sick, I just let her do it and it's like a treasure hunt after she leaves.
I can't just sweep the kitchen floor. I have to use the hose attachment on the vacuum after. Brooms miss too much. Especially when you have animal fur. Proper mopping is done on your hands and knees. You can get in the corners that way and don't miss spots. And when you vacuum you have to use the hose to get along baseboards every time and you have to vacuum the furniture - both sides of cushions.
I would figure in my head how long it should take to do each task: 45 minutes to clean the kitchen (everything has to come off the counter and each thing has to be washed down, as well as the appliances), 30 minutes to dust, 20 minutes to vacuum. It would really stress me out when it was taking longer. Cause it always does. You always find something else that needs cleaned while you're in each room.
Laundry folding is a precision art. Corners have to be matched up. Do you realize how many towels aren't perfect rectangles? It's so frustrating. I'm the only one in the house allowed to match socks. Period.
I have a super sniffer, too. I smell everything and then have to go looking for the source. Several times a week I can be found trying to find the source of something that smells hot. Fire phobia. When I leave the house for extended periods (say an hour), I'm running through all the things in my head to make sure they've been unplugged. Repeatedly.
I think out loud. I have caught myself doing it in public. Really embarrassing. And often I'm not thinking about current things, I'm replaying past events in my mind.
I don't like being touched. I don't like people sitting or standing too close to me. I swear I can feel all my nerve endings stand on end when someone is too close. I can't stand someone standing behind me where I can't see them. When in line somewhere, I'll stand to the side a bit so I can still see who is behind me.
It's really sad the things I've given up since being sick. When I get better, I'm going to have to redo the entire house. Starting with the kitchen cupboards.
My house was always spotless. A place for everything and everything in its place. I couldn't go to bed at night if anything was out of place. Even if Wynter's dad hadn't been a jerk in all the other ways, that would have led to divorce. It was hell in my last house because it just wasn't big enough and there wasn't enough storage. I don't miss it. At all. My mom would come visit and start putting things places and I'd follow behind her and fix them. Now, since I've been sick, I just let her do it and it's like a treasure hunt after she leaves.
I can't just sweep the kitchen floor. I have to use the hose attachment on the vacuum after. Brooms miss too much. Especially when you have animal fur. Proper mopping is done on your hands and knees. You can get in the corners that way and don't miss spots. And when you vacuum you have to use the hose to get along baseboards every time and you have to vacuum the furniture - both sides of cushions.
I would figure in my head how long it should take to do each task: 45 minutes to clean the kitchen (everything has to come off the counter and each thing has to be washed down, as well as the appliances), 30 minutes to dust, 20 minutes to vacuum. It would really stress me out when it was taking longer. Cause it always does. You always find something else that needs cleaned while you're in each room.
Laundry folding is a precision art. Corners have to be matched up. Do you realize how many towels aren't perfect rectangles? It's so frustrating. I'm the only one in the house allowed to match socks. Period.
I have a super sniffer, too. I smell everything and then have to go looking for the source. Several times a week I can be found trying to find the source of something that smells hot. Fire phobia. When I leave the house for extended periods (say an hour), I'm running through all the things in my head to make sure they've been unplugged. Repeatedly.
I think out loud. I have caught myself doing it in public. Really embarrassing. And often I'm not thinking about current things, I'm replaying past events in my mind.
I don't like being touched. I don't like people sitting or standing too close to me. I swear I can feel all my nerve endings stand on end when someone is too close. I can't stand someone standing behind me where I can't see them. When in line somewhere, I'll stand to the side a bit so I can still see who is behind me.
It's really sad the things I've given up since being sick. When I get better, I'm going to have to redo the entire house. Starting with the kitchen cupboards.