to try medications for myself? I did once, a few years ago, but didn't like how I felt and started gaining weight so I stopped before it even had a chance to kick in. It was Lexapro. Then, for the past few years I've felt like I've been dealing with everything fairly well and hadn't really felt depressed (at least nothing I couldn't cope with). Still don't know if I'm depressed but I know I am struggling lately. Besides the usual stress of difficult child, there is mega stress with easy child, and this year work is stressful to a point (lots of difficult children and behaviors but as soon as I get home I let it go because I'm dealing with my own kids' issues). Not only difficult child issues at work but a new administrator as well and she has a lot of us on edge. Anyhow, the past few days I notice I've been having heart palpitations (sp?) that I'm sure must be related to stress. In addition today, I felt a very odd pulsating in my right ear (sort of like when you have water in your ear only I don't and when I feel myself getting more upset or anxious it seem to get worse). Also, I notice my patience is at an all time low-little things are really wearing at me. I had an appointment. with my therapist tonight (whom I love) and she thinks it may be time for me to try a medication just for awhile-nothing long term. She thinks maybe something like Paxil (although she stated she's not a doctor, just her layperson's recommendation) because she thinks depression and anxiety go hand in hand and mine may be more on the anxiety end (which I agree) and she says Paxil can be good for the anxiety. So, why am I sitting here not wanting to call my doctor tomorrow? I know there is nothing wrong with needing to take medications. Why do I feel like I should just be able to deal with everything, that maybe if I just do more exercising or try to relax more it should be enough? Thanks for listening!