...when either one of my kids decide they want to talk. Not chit chat. Angst stuff. difficult child started tonight. It was, of course, right after I had taken my lunesta. I tried to tell her that I really couldn't think too clearly, but she was deep in the throes of angst. I even had her come into my room and talk to me while I was in bed. Of course, it's now 4am, the put you to sleep portion of the lunesta has worn off, I'm wide awake and she's in bed. ARGH!!! She doesn't like her hair, she doesn't like her eyebrows, she doesn't like her nose, she doesn't like her mouth, she doesn't like how she's breaking out, she doesn't like the shape of her face, she doesn't like her stomach (if you look with a magnifying glass and tilt your head just right you see a little roll), she doesn't like having a messy room, but she doesn't like cleaning even more, she doesn't like how the clothes she likes don't look good on her, she doesn't like not having friends, she doesn't like how it's so hard for her to meet people, etc, etc, etc, etc. And there is absolutely nothing that can be done about it. I talked to her and talked to her. Of course, this is far from the first time we've had this conversation. I asked her if she realized that everytime I make any suggestions her response is, I can't, I won't, I don't, It won't work, It doesn't matter. She said, "I guess I'm just a negative person." Ya think? So, I asked her if that was making her happy. No. So, what do you want to do about it? There is nothing to be done. I've bought several different products for her hair. They don't work. She does have super thick hair with curl underneath, so it gets poofy and frizzy. But she also has her hair all one length and a blunt cut. I think I finally convinced her tonight to try another hair style. We are going to tweeze her eyebrows tomorrow. I've bought products for acne, but they don't work. It might help if she used them everyday. Or even just more than once in a while. Told her happiness comes from within not from external sources. I know, Mom, she says. So, for tomorrow we are doing the hair, eyebrows and clothes shopping (that was already on the schedule before this all came up). Sunday I'm going to help her with her room. Monday, we are going to start walking and exercising together. I'm hoping that if she can find a smidgeon of confidence and maybe a smidgeon of happiness and some kind of sense of accomplishment that she can find the motivation to do the hard work it's going to take to change years worth of negative thinking.