My Difficult Child sent me a message at 12:30 last Friday morning saying he wasn't doing well so far from home. And basically that things weren't going well in general. Since he lost his id and apparently his phone I've only heard from him on Facebook. I didn't see the message until I got up and I sent him a reply asking where he was staying and where he could be contacted. I also contacted the girl he followed and asked her if she had seen or spoken with him. She sent a message that she thought she saw his backpack and stuff hidden on a trail by her house that looked like his and that someone had weaved a makeshift bouquet of flowers in her door. She said she would look for him. Today I started calling around because no one has seen him and he hasn't read my message that I sent back to his on Friday. He is on disability for bipolar and I called his payee and asked if they had contact. She said his checks keep getting returned but he called Friday requesting they pay for a room because there was a winter snow storm coming where he is at. They agreed to pay for a room but she says she thinks he didn't go because they never got a bill for his stay. She also said he was supposed to call Monday to give them an accurate address where they could send him money. He never called. I contacted the day shelter and asked if he had been there. Citing confidentiality laws they couldn't tell me but said they would leave a message at the desk for him to contact me and let the outreach people know I was trying to get ahold of him. I've checked arrest records where he is at, tried hospitals. I am really scared. I contacted the girl again and asked her if anyone has seen him since Friday. She hasn't replied. I am so scared something terrible has happened. I am ready to file a missing persons report or ask for a welfare check. He has a warrant in our state but I don't know if they would hold him on that there if they locate him. At this point I'd rather see him in jail. He is totally non functioning right now. By that I mean he's not even able to give the payee correct info for his checks or allow them to help secure housing. I am so scared and don't know what to do. I am trying to hope that no news is good news but a couple of weeks ago he was sent to detox there for a few days because he was wondering around talking to people who weren't there and acting erratically. When I talked to him after that I tried to encourage him to stay at the shelter and get counseling but to no avail. I am terrified that he froze to death or something terrible has happened. I am barely keeping it together and even my husband is concerned. I have no resources there except the girl, and the homeless outreach program. I feel like I'm going to lose my sanity.