So I got a text that he relapsed last night. Some one at work asked him to go out and he didn't know what to say... He then called a few hours after he sent me the text. I do feel he was still drinking. Told me he will be getting kicked out of outpatient this coming week because he never gave up smoking weed.... So the $5000 we paid for him to go was just wasted and he doesn't care at all. He was crying over his friends passing and how he has no one to talk to... His girlfriend left him and now his friend died... he was talking about taking his life because he can't take anymore. We told him that his friend wouldn't want that and that he needs to get his life back on track and live it to the fullest.. He was cursing and nothing I said was good so I hung up and left him talk to my husband. Not sure what the conversation was but he said to my husband..."I don't give a f**K about my family".. Yep, I know he doesn't. Every cent we pay to fly out to him, to help him with rehab, etc. is just wasted. I seriously don't even want him in my life anymore. He keeps saying he is not well mentally but refuses to get help for it. I mention the crisis line and get told to f off because they will commit him. He asked me what would be the worst thing that could have happened to him after losing his girlfriend and I replied losing your job...He said no you can just get another one. I guess the answer was to be losing his best friend... Not losing someone from his family?? I suggested going away for a few months to get help and said about his job can be replaced- nope I have really bad thoughts for being his mother but I seriously can't take much more. I don't want to fly out there and help him move like we promised. I don't want to buy him a bed like I promised either. I don't want to speak to him anymore. I don't know what tomorrow will bring for him. I could use some prayers.