I got my decongestant today. Apparently they don't have an allergy medication in-house that also contains a decongestant so they gave me that separately. I talked with a SW who led me to the dept that helps with housing if you are homeless or need transitional housing. I have to complete a long application this weekend then go back to meet with them Mon. AM. Also, they will then have me talk with the person who runs the worrk program to see if I qualify and can get a job via that route. I walked around a bit and found they had a retail area and today they had local farmers in selling produce. I wasn't going to spend cash on food but caved and splurged and bought $2 worth of green tomatoes to fry. LOL! Then after having my photo taken for a VA ID and scheduling a mammo, I came home to find my mental health records from the military in the mail box. There are about 15 pages in the stack so I started reading and found that it only referred to "counseling for anger and hurt issues that surfaced during treatment". (The treatment was for substance abuse and about all of the notes focus on progress in that area.) When listing closest family members, next to my bro it says "no communication". It doesn't say a word about his attempt to molest me as a kid but at least it shows that we weren't the close-knit family he tried to claim when trying to get custody of difficult child. After my mother it says something I can't make out well- "EtoH" is what it looks like, then the word "abuse". Any ideas on that one? Then I reached the next to last page and there it was- not about my bro, but about my uncle and trauma as a child and my coming forward with it and the details I gave her about it and my feelings about it and my childhood in general. She also notes my fear of my mother being so controlling of my life and that my mother took the issue with my uncle out on me. She never says PTSD but describes my effect in various therapuetic settings, etc., and notes that I need "support and encouragement and that any future need for therapy or rehabilitation should not be approached as punishment or failure". (Hmmm....any idea why the courts threatening to send difficult child to my bro, blaming me for difficult child's issues, and wanting to order me to therapy then monitor it is not a good idea and causing me additional stress? LOL!) I kind of liked that she also noted my desire to go to college and which profession I hoped to major in- and I did accomplish that and have had a license in that profession for the last 15 years- and never went back to drugs. So, it felt good to see something written about my goals when I was at the lowest point as far as sitting there in rehab after getting in trouble in the military. I hope this helps others who might end up reading it to see that I did mean those things and pursued my own growth without any legal "force", monitoring, or requirement. Oh, it also notes that "patient wonders if she's insane". LOL!! I'm still wondering that, too! Anyway, I just wanted to share some good news and a happy day since I've had so many depressed and bad ones over the last 18 months. Thanks to all who continue to be my cyber-friends thru all of this!