kt & I have been decorating for Christmas ~ the most holiday decorations you've seen in my home in 3 or 4 years. It's looking pretty & festive. Saying that, as I've not been able to sleep I sat down at my piano over the last few nights & "retaught" myself to play my favorite carol O Holy Night. I'm thrilled that just a few hours ago I made it through the entire piece of music. I was in tears as I played it once again & it began to sound better & better. Tears of joy for the first time in the longest time. I think this just may be God's little gift to me & I'll accept it in humbleness & thanks.