Hi all, Gosh it's been awhile...looks like 3 months since the last time I posted. Yep, Young difficult child got kicked out of the Army for sub abuse. He didn't receive a "dishonorable discharge" so that's good, it reads "General under honorable conditions" on his DD214/release paperwork. He's been home about a month and of course got to meet his son, my grandbaby Joey, for the first time. He totally ignored his wife when he got home and she was ready to make life difficult for young difficult child, Jarod. M told Jarod that he could only see his son at a monitored facility to start with...this quickly changed. M REALLY just wanted Jarod to come home and be, as she says, "The man I know he can be the man I believe in" etc. She wants family but sadly... he does not. He did figure out a way to see my grandbaby Joey though...He called Mindy and asked her to come over and of course acted like he was trying to work on the marriage even having sex with her which REALLY bothered me. He told me that she is leveraging Joey against him if he doesn't want her then he can't have Joey. So he just pretty much used her for the duration. As of last weekend though that "game playing" is all over. He was fairly verbally abusive towards her...of course he had been drinking, he pretty much stays drunk every night after work, No, he's not of age to drink, big brother supplies him and/or M was. So he hasn't seen Joey now in 2 weeks and thinks that M will probibly not bring Joey around to see him now until after they are divorced. She called asking for some money yesterday but Jarod has decided that if he buys diapers, formula, new car seat etc. that he doesn't need to hand her hundreds of dollars per month. He and husband checked out a child support online calculator that gives an amount based on income. Said he should pay around $460 per month. Meanwhile Oldest difficult child Josh, now 21, has left his wife, moved into an apt with some buddies, stole one of the buddies girlfriends, left that situation is living at home and seeing his girlfriend, who, did I mention...is married. So Both of them are married...to other people. Lovely huh. So Now I have both difficult children back at home. They are working for husband but unfortunately husband is likely going to have to lay them off come the beginning of December. A project husband and the boys had been working on has now been put on hold because main company funding this project lost it's credit line due to the economic situation going on. Also about 2 weeks ago husband lost a 75K a year client that he had been primarily officing out of over the past 5/6 years. Soooo, now his office is being moved to home. And now...miss Jess. She is 16 and going to driving school Mon through Friday for the next 4 weeks. She spends a great deal of time with a male buddy...yes they are just buddies. She...I think still likes her girlfriend, which means the lesbian situation is still going on...but it's allright. She's doing well in school, meets all her responsibilities, is still bowling, In fact husband is coaching the High School girls bowling team for the 3rd year in a row and of course Jess is right at the top. She's averaging around 215 the past 2 weeks. Meanwhile...my medications are NOT working the way they were. I don't know if I revealed this , Last year, Feb 7, 2007 I had a psychotic break, and was hospitalized till I came out of it several days later. Jarod was here at that time ( pre Army) and saw what happend to me so did Jess and Joseph (husband). Josh was still in Jail at the time. I'll never know "why" it happend...the year though leading up to the mental breakdown I had had no less than 5 panic attacks, mostly out of pain regarding Josh's imprisonment. I haven't had psychosis since then but I was diagnosed as Bipolar 2. It was the mania that sent me overboard, I hadn't been able to sleep for several days prior to the onset of psychosis. It was very scary, a bit like a nightmare mixed in with reality, all religiously based...for what its worth I haven't been to church since. Just very frightend by what happedn to me. It was mental torture. I switched medications about a 2 months ago going from Abilify to Geodon...big mistake, the Abilify had been working beautifully, no mania, very much in the present, no stress...life was easy. The ONLY downside had been the 30 lb weight gain. Sooo, I let vanity take over and decided that my Dr needed to switch my medications, she chose Geodon. It did NOTHING for me, absolutely zip nada and the stress returned, Yikes just in time for Jarod's return from the Army. It's been kinda of rough lately with Jarod's likely bipolar problems mixed in with my own stress level. I AM back on the Abilify but It doesn't seem like it's kicked in yet. I have been running roung the house non stop "perfecting" even in the yard the last 3 days trimming, cutting, racking, composting etc. Yah, the house and yard are looking pretty but I am definitely in go go go mode and it's not coool. Anyway it's just been so long since I gave yall a holar and I always miss yall after a few months go by plus there's so much to update on lately...I Can't believe all of my children are back at home! I think husband and I make it way to cushy for them. Hope everyone here is doing well these days. Yall never are far from my thoughts. Love, Lovemysons (Tammy) and My daughter too! ps...I originally posted in the Sub Abuse forum this morning but thought I would reach even more "old" friends, smile, on the watercooler too. And...the reason for my smily face icon is cause it's so good to be here with you all again.