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<blockquote data-quote="Big Bad Kitty" data-source="post: 174380" data-attributes="member: 3647"><p>I also echo the one thing a day.</p><p></p><p>2 years ago (about May 2006) I started getting sick. My monthlies were lasting 3 weeks, one week off, and then coming back for 3 weeks again. And they were heavy. So heavy that I was afraid to stand up because I was scared that I would leak. I was so weak I would fall over. It got so bad that my blood pressure at one time was 70/40.</p><p></p><p></p><p>By Nov 2006 my doctor gave me something that worked. </p><p>The medicine stopped the bleeding completely. But she did not mention the side effects. What she gave me was a hormone that is usually given to breast cancer patients. I put on 50 pounds in a matter of a few months. I was horrified. </p><p></p><p>Then in June of last year, I got VERY sick with Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease (COPD). I was in the hospital for a week. The good news is that when I left the hospital, I quit smoking. The bad news is, I gained another 50 lbs over that summer.</p><p></p><p>Lat summer and fall I was in such an unbearably deep depression. I was almost agoraphobic. I was petrified at the thought of leaving my house. I had gotten so big and I was so embarrassed. I did not want to be seen in public at all, and I found any way I could to get out of it. </p><p></p><p>Last winter came and I was in my glory. I did not HAVE to leave the house very often, and when I did, I was all covered up in heavy clothes and a big coat. But I knew that spring would be along soon and summer before I knew it. When spring hit, I MADE myself do things out of the house. It was hard, it hurt, and I cried a lot. But I MADE myself take Tink to the park. I MADE myself go to the mall. Little by little, one thing at a time.</p><p></p><p>I am still not comfortable in my own skin, but I have gotten to the point this summer where I take Tink to the pool almost every day. Yep. In a swimsuit. I get my big fat butt in that pool right along with everyone else. It took practice. It took a lot of self talking. It took me believing that I have every right to be in public as the next guy.</p><p></p><p>Try to do one thing at a time. Plan on it a day or so ahead of time. Play the scenario in your head. Let the tape play all the way through. Tell yourself how good it will be for you, and down the line, how good it will be for your son. Then try something else. Find out what interests you. Just keep trying. </p><p></p><p>I am sorry for your hurting heart. I wish you were here so I could give you a hug.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Big Bad Kitty, post: 174380, member: 3647"] I also echo the one thing a day. 2 years ago (about May 2006) I started getting sick. My monthlies were lasting 3 weeks, one week off, and then coming back for 3 weeks again. And they were heavy. So heavy that I was afraid to stand up because I was scared that I would leak. I was so weak I would fall over. It got so bad that my blood pressure at one time was 70/40. By Nov 2006 my doctor gave me something that worked. The medicine stopped the bleeding completely. But she did not mention the side effects. What she gave me was a hormone that is usually given to breast cancer patients. I put on 50 pounds in a matter of a few months. I was horrified. Then in June of last year, I got VERY sick with Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease (COPD). I was in the hospital for a week. The good news is that when I left the hospital, I quit smoking. The bad news is, I gained another 50 lbs over that summer. Lat summer and fall I was in such an unbearably deep depression. I was almost agoraphobic. I was petrified at the thought of leaving my house. I had gotten so big and I was so embarrassed. I did not want to be seen in public at all, and I found any way I could to get out of it. Last winter came and I was in my glory. I did not HAVE to leave the house very often, and when I did, I was all covered up in heavy clothes and a big coat. But I knew that spring would be along soon and summer before I knew it. When spring hit, I MADE myself do things out of the house. It was hard, it hurt, and I cried a lot. But I MADE myself take Tink to the park. I MADE myself go to the mall. Little by little, one thing at a time. I am still not comfortable in my own skin, but I have gotten to the point this summer where I take Tink to the pool almost every day. Yep. In a swimsuit. I get my big fat butt in that pool right along with everyone else. It took practice. It took a lot of self talking. It took me believing that I have every right to be in public as the next guy. Try to do one thing at a time. Plan on it a day or so ahead of time. Play the scenario in your head. Let the tape play all the way through. Tell yourself how good it will be for you, and down the line, how good it will be for your son. Then try something else. Find out what interests you. Just keep trying. I am sorry for your hurting heart. I wish you were here so I could give you a hug. [/QUOTE]
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