Californiablonde
Well-Known Member
So now I have the DUI **** to deal with, and they expect A LOT. I went down to register for my drug and alcohol classes yesterday, and they told me the classes are $226 a month for three months! I'm already struggling financially and this is gonna downright kill me. I also owe the court another $300 by July and I will have a warrant out for my arrest if I don't pay it on time. I work at a high school and I don't work in the summer. My summer vacation is in the months of July and August. Of course I don't get paid for my time off, so we live off of child support and a very small savings that I put away during the school year.
Usually I just barely get by in the summer, and more often than not I have to borrow money from my mom (which she hangs over my head) to pay the bills. This summer will be really, really tight and most of it will be spent taking these damn classes and doing my community service. OH, and the classes are TWO nights a week. I can't handle doing much after work as it is, being a slave to my night time pills that I have to take at six, which knocks me out on my *** by 8. The classes are on Wednesday and Friday nights. Friday isn't so bad. I can take my pills later after class is over and I don't have to drive to work the next morning. Wednesdays are gonna be tough. The classes on Wednesdays are from 6:00 to 8:00. I won't be getting home till 8:30, which means I will be taking my pills two and a half hours later than usual.
My Geodon stays in my system for twelve hours. I need to wake up for work by six each morning, but when my Geodon is still in my system it is damn near impossible to wake up to an alarm. I sleep through everything. Can't drive with the pills still in my system either. I feel very groggy and I don't feel safe enough to drive. For the time being, I am going to have to call in to work Thursday mornings and say I'm gonna be late a couple of hours. Will have to make up some excuse, like a dr. appointment or something like that. Thankfully once July hits I won't have to worry about work, but for the time being I'm going to have to come in late to get by.
Oh, and besides the classes two nights a week, I need to attend a self help group like AA for six weekends. I am going to find a NA meeting instead. I used to smoke pot and I have no problems going to meetings for that, even though I've been sober for years. I absolutely refuse to do an AA meeting. I'm not an alcoholic. I didn't get busted for drinking and driving. I got busted for taking a Klonopin and driving. I am not going to attend meetings and pretend to be an alcoholic when I'm not. I shouldn't have to take these classes geared towards alchoholics in the first place. It does not sit well with me that I have to sit around with a bunch of stupid people who drove drunk, when I've never done that in my life.
I never ever drink and drive. Even if I only have one glass of wine, I still won't drive. I am seriously THAT paranoid. I know better and so should everyone else in my group. But they drank and drove. I didn't. So I get lectured up the *** for three whole months for doing something I never did! When I explained my story to one of the guys sitting next to me, he was shocked that I actually got charged with anything. At this point, so am I. It all seems so totally unfair to have to endure this hardship. I didn't do anything wrong. I did what my doctor told me to do. I don't know how much more stress I can handle at this point. Sorry for the rant. I just need to get it out somewhere, I guess.
Usually I just barely get by in the summer, and more often than not I have to borrow money from my mom (which she hangs over my head) to pay the bills. This summer will be really, really tight and most of it will be spent taking these damn classes and doing my community service. OH, and the classes are TWO nights a week. I can't handle doing much after work as it is, being a slave to my night time pills that I have to take at six, which knocks me out on my *** by 8. The classes are on Wednesday and Friday nights. Friday isn't so bad. I can take my pills later after class is over and I don't have to drive to work the next morning. Wednesdays are gonna be tough. The classes on Wednesdays are from 6:00 to 8:00. I won't be getting home till 8:30, which means I will be taking my pills two and a half hours later than usual.
My Geodon stays in my system for twelve hours. I need to wake up for work by six each morning, but when my Geodon is still in my system it is damn near impossible to wake up to an alarm. I sleep through everything. Can't drive with the pills still in my system either. I feel very groggy and I don't feel safe enough to drive. For the time being, I am going to have to call in to work Thursday mornings and say I'm gonna be late a couple of hours. Will have to make up some excuse, like a dr. appointment or something like that. Thankfully once July hits I won't have to worry about work, but for the time being I'm going to have to come in late to get by.
Oh, and besides the classes two nights a week, I need to attend a self help group like AA for six weekends. I am going to find a NA meeting instead. I used to smoke pot and I have no problems going to meetings for that, even though I've been sober for years. I absolutely refuse to do an AA meeting. I'm not an alcoholic. I didn't get busted for drinking and driving. I got busted for taking a Klonopin and driving. I am not going to attend meetings and pretend to be an alcoholic when I'm not. I shouldn't have to take these classes geared towards alchoholics in the first place. It does not sit well with me that I have to sit around with a bunch of stupid people who drove drunk, when I've never done that in my life.
I never ever drink and drive. Even if I only have one glass of wine, I still won't drive. I am seriously THAT paranoid. I know better and so should everyone else in my group. But they drank and drove. I didn't. So I get lectured up the *** for three whole months for doing something I never did! When I explained my story to one of the guys sitting next to me, he was shocked that I actually got charged with anything. At this point, so am I. It all seems so totally unfair to have to endure this hardship. I didn't do anything wrong. I did what my doctor told me to do. I don't know how much more stress I can handle at this point. Sorry for the rant. I just need to get it out somewhere, I guess.
