Hi, I'm here. So sorry I have not been on.
Now is as good a time as any to explain myself.
So Tink has been a holy terror. Her doctor lowered her abilify from 5 to 2 and put her on prozac. Within a week she beat up a boy at school. We took her off the prozac, upped her back to 5mg abilify, and she is now also on tennex. It is certainly helping with her impulsivity.
During that time I went from thinking that this kid needs all the medications she can get, to thinking she is just a brat and it is all my fault, to finally finding the gray and believing that it is probably a little of both. Throw in not seeing her daddy since December and you have one challenging kid.
Speaking of her dad, she id fianlly decide she wanted to see him in jail. We have visited him 3 times. Sparkle fanny actually offered (!) for me to take "her" place visiting him once a week. So she has seen him the past 3 Sundays. She has handled it like a trooper. He sat there crying, I was crying, and she tried to cheer US up. Last week he was sentenced, he got 3 1/2 years. He can realistically be home in less than a year. We can't visit him in county anymore, it will have to be at the penn, and we don't know which one he is going to yet.
Meantime Copper is going to court for an OP for the past 2 months, this is from her x-boyfriend (not the leprechaun, some pompous controlling a-hole that she dated for a month after she broke up with the leprechaun). THis jerk actually hired a lawyer to drag it out, and she has proof up the ying-yang that he was harrassing her. Court tomorrow morning, this should be the end of it.
Meanwhile I am still without a car. I've used my mom's car off and on recently, as my mom has gotten so bad (she has MS, we think, but now they are saying it might be Parkinsons) that she can't drive very often. I'm getting her car again tomorrow because I have doctor appts this week.
The biggest news!
I am having my surgery in 10 days. The bypass. Which means I won't be able to make the gathering. But I'll look good at the next one.
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I've kept off the board because I wasn't sure what I believed anymore. I'm still not 100% sure, but I know that I've missed everyone. I'm at a point in my life where I am questioning and re-questioning everything. EVERYthing. Plus I felt like as a veteran of the board, I should be here for others more often than I have, and I'm rather embarrased that I haven't been.
Oh, and I'm addicted to Facebook.
So anyways, I'm gonna try to be here more often. Love all you guys.