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<blockquote data-quote="DammitJanet" data-source="post: 126168" data-attributes="member: 1514"><p>Oh Jen....</p><p></p><p>Breathe!!! You asked what I was like before I was diagnosed. Well...to most people who saw me in the outside world they wouldnt have realized there was anything wrong. I could maintain a fairly normal facade to the world. I was super mom...advocating to the max for my kids, dealing with schools and mental health, going to sports games, being team mom, then working full time and doing all the above! </p><p></p><p>It all came crumbling down when I added in physical problems on top of everything else. That was the straw that broke me. I simply couldnt maintain anymore and little things started showing in my "public" face. I had a temper tantrum at work. Hit a door. Started having more and more problems dealing with people in the public. I didnt want to go anywhere. With the physical stuff, I couldnt go anywhere without awful pain...it caused me to close in. I got more and more to feeling like everyone would just be better off without me. </p><p></p><p>I even managed to hide my problems for years from the people at mental health! What a relief it was when I could finally talk to Corys people and say...ya know...I have this too and right now, everything is stressing me out too badly and I cant deal with it...you need to help me! No one thought I was an awful person or parent. They didnt blame me. </p><p></p><p>I have been dealing with attempting to get stable and deal with bipolar and borderline for what...8 years now? Its something I do every day. I will never outgrow it but I do everything in my power to get through "one more day" as stable as I can be. Im not always successful. I have very down days. I also have days when I can see how far I have come. </p><p></p><p>I wrote an essay about bipolar that I posted on the general board...go read that. Im also here anytime anyone wants to talk to me. Im not shy...lol. At least not in the cyberworld.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="DammitJanet, post: 126168, member: 1514"] Oh Jen.... Breathe!!! You asked what I was like before I was diagnosed. Well...to most people who saw me in the outside world they wouldnt have realized there was anything wrong. I could maintain a fairly normal facade to the world. I was super mom...advocating to the max for my kids, dealing with schools and mental health, going to sports games, being team mom, then working full time and doing all the above! It all came crumbling down when I added in physical problems on top of everything else. That was the straw that broke me. I simply couldnt maintain anymore and little things started showing in my "public" face. I had a temper tantrum at work. Hit a door. Started having more and more problems dealing with people in the public. I didnt want to go anywhere. With the physical stuff, I couldnt go anywhere without awful pain...it caused me to close in. I got more and more to feeling like everyone would just be better off without me. I even managed to hide my problems for years from the people at mental health! What a relief it was when I could finally talk to Corys people and say...ya know...I have this too and right now, everything is stressing me out too badly and I cant deal with it...you need to help me! No one thought I was an awful person or parent. They didnt blame me. I have been dealing with attempting to get stable and deal with bipolar and borderline for what...8 years now? Its something I do every day. I will never outgrow it but I do everything in my power to get through "one more day" as stable as I can be. Im not always successful. I have very down days. I also have days when I can see how far I have come. I wrote an essay about bipolar that I posted on the general board...go read that. Im also here anytime anyone wants to talk to me. Im not shy...lol. At least not in the cyberworld. [/QUOTE]
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