Hi, My name is Cynthia, I am a 32 year old mother, I have an ten year old daughter who is the most important thing in my life. She is also, perhaps, the most trying.
Do not get me wrong, I adore my daughter, but I am at a loss. I know that I am at a loss.
Rugrat, which I will call her on here as that is her prefered nickname, is ADHD, Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED), and SA, She also has Restless Leg Syndrome and must take medicine to sleep. She has attempted to run away three times now. She has rages that happen once every two weeks or so on a general basis, and last week was her worst week yet at one each day for two days. She tried to take off running tonight but my mother was able to grab hold of her wrist first before she could beat a path to the road (we live near a very busy highway and it's dark out there, nobody would see her and that is the road she has ran towards before)
At this point, we have attempted to get into Family Guidance where we are and she has had a psychiatric evaluation, but we are on a waiting list (and have been for two months)
We are at our breaking point.
I don't know how to help her
I want to help her.
I've read and read and read and nothing I've tried works
She is in anger management therapy that does not seem to be helping.
She is now constantly snide, hateful, rude. She calls herself loser, that she's stupid, fat and ugly.
I tell her no she's not, that she's beautiful, wonderful, and smart.
She drew pictures to her teacher, and put on the bottom From The Loser
I love my daughter so much, I feel like I'm failing her now.
My biggest fear is that she will hurt someone else
That she will hurt herself
That she will run away and that I will never see her again
I have lost three jobs because she has so many issues at school and they have to call me to come get her.
I can't work, I can't do anything, I sit by the phone everyday praying that she will have a good day.
Desperately,
Cynthia
Do not get me wrong, I adore my daughter, but I am at a loss. I know that I am at a loss.
Rugrat, which I will call her on here as that is her prefered nickname, is ADHD, Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED), and SA, She also has Restless Leg Syndrome and must take medicine to sleep. She has attempted to run away three times now. She has rages that happen once every two weeks or so on a general basis, and last week was her worst week yet at one each day for two days. She tried to take off running tonight but my mother was able to grab hold of her wrist first before she could beat a path to the road (we live near a very busy highway and it's dark out there, nobody would see her and that is the road she has ran towards before)
At this point, we have attempted to get into Family Guidance where we are and she has had a psychiatric evaluation, but we are on a waiting list (and have been for two months)
We are at our breaking point.
I don't know how to help her
I want to help her.
I've read and read and read and nothing I've tried works
She is in anger management therapy that does not seem to be helping.
She is now constantly snide, hateful, rude. She calls herself loser, that she's stupid, fat and ugly.
I tell her no she's not, that she's beautiful, wonderful, and smart.
She drew pictures to her teacher, and put on the bottom From The Loser
I love my daughter so much, I feel like I'm failing her now.
My biggest fear is that she will hurt someone else
That she will hurt herself
That she will run away and that I will never see her again
I have lost three jobs because she has so many issues at school and they have to call me to come get her.
I can't work, I can't do anything, I sit by the phone everyday praying that she will have a good day.
Desperately,
Cynthia