Today was one of those days where I wish I could just run away from home. This morning was Daniel's appointment in Winter Haven with his therapist. Winter Haven is 1 1/2 hrs from us. I had to take David with us due to no sitter and really there was no problem on the way up there as they were watching Star Wars. Love vans with TVs!! The problems started there with David bugging everyone for a map, atlas or dictionary. Daniel spoke with the therapist alone for quite awhile and then I was asked to come in by myself. Okay, Daniel does need some kind of out of home care but I will have to discuss with psychiatrist tomorrow. The therapist brought up the fact that Daniel no longer has any socialization with kids his age and really has something against girls. Girls to Daniel are ALL females. I cannot help with the social bit..been there done that...even tennis lessons turned into Daniel throwing his racket in anger if some kid looked at him funny. He has lost all his friends due to his anger and aggression at this point. Taking him to a playground generally results in him getting into an argument with some kid. On the way home of course they picked at each other....all the way...groan. When we did get home David began his "I am hungry" bit although he had plenty of snacks and should have been full. I tried to lay down for an hr to get rid of my headache and he was in there every few moments with a tiny lego sword trying to stab me and saying he would kill me if I did not feed him...BRAT!! Took him to his theraphy appointment and he was all over the place. Therapist contacting his psychiatrist about the mean things he was saying and doing and what I was telling her. She also had me sign permission to get someone in the home to help with his behaviors. She was shocked. Now I did let some cats out of the bag today that I have kept to myself due to embarassment. My boys, more Daniel then David, will often use the bath towels in their bathroom to clean their behinds after a BM. I have tried the bathroom wipes but that has not helped. Daniel told the therapist that it is only him a few times......lie, lie, lie....and he does it because he feels he is wet. I know David has done it because he tells me the truth but it is more often Daniel. I did have trouble with both bowel training them and David actually had to have spinal surgery to work out his problems. He had a spinal tether that was interfering with the need to go sensation. Daniel's therapist wants me to note other things that I find abnormal with Daniel. Really never thought of it but there are some that I have gotten so used to that I now consider them the norm for him but they are not the norm for a boy his age. Okay..just needed to rant a bit...am exhausted from the trip and going to find a sitter for David for tomorrow's appointment. My back dr has told me time and time again not to sit in one position for any time over 45 mins....he has got to be kidding.