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<blockquote data-quote="AmericanGirl" data-source="post: 545635"><p>Guess who isnt sleeping tonight?</p><p></p><p>My heart is full at the outpouring of love and support. I have people sleeping right now with their cell phones on, ready to take my call. People have offered their homes to me tonight or to come stay here with me. After surviving an alcoholic home plus an abusive marriage, it is healing.</p><p></p><p>It comes down to this....while my heart is broken, i am powerless over his addiction. Thats all he sees now. It is his lover. Nothing else matters.</p><p></p><p>So, i wait and pray it will loosen its grip. In the meantime, i pledge to take care of me. To do whatever it takes to lessen my fears.</p><p></p><p>Tomorrow, i will speak with the rehab and preload plans should difficult child awaken. I will eat properly. I will move his car to a safe place where he cannot get to it. I will secure my home as much as I can. I will talk with my loving friends and accept their help. While i will try to be ready should he decide he needs help, i will not stop my life until that happens.</p><p></p><p>He knows how much I love him. I am the only one who has always been there for him. Dad, gmom, etc have abandoned him. Not me. I wont leave him. I will leave his addiction. I am powerless over it. It will choose a case of beer over me every time. That doesnt mean i am worthless for i am not. It mean the cunning, evil disease is in charge. I hate addiction.</p><p></p><p>Thank you for allowing me to post. It helps. Bless you all.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="AmericanGirl, post: 545635"] Guess who isnt sleeping tonight? My heart is full at the outpouring of love and support. I have people sleeping right now with their cell phones on, ready to take my call. People have offered their homes to me tonight or to come stay here with me. After surviving an alcoholic home plus an abusive marriage, it is healing. It comes down to this....while my heart is broken, i am powerless over his addiction. Thats all he sees now. It is his lover. Nothing else matters. So, i wait and pray it will loosen its grip. In the meantime, i pledge to take care of me. To do whatever it takes to lessen my fears. Tomorrow, i will speak with the rehab and preload plans should difficult child awaken. I will eat properly. I will move his car to a safe place where he cannot get to it. I will secure my home as much as I can. I will talk with my loving friends and accept their help. While i will try to be ready should he decide he needs help, i will not stop my life until that happens. He knows how much I love him. I am the only one who has always been there for him. Dad, gmom, etc have abandoned him. Not me. I wont leave him. I will leave his addiction. I am powerless over it. It will choose a case of beer over me every time. That doesnt mean i am worthless for i am not. It mean the cunning, evil disease is in charge. I hate addiction. Thank you for allowing me to post. It helps. Bless you all. [/QUOTE]
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