Forums
New posts
Search forums
What's new
New posts
New profile posts
Latest activity
Internet Search
Members
Current visitors
New profile posts
Search profile posts
Log in
Register
What's new
Search
Search
Search titles only
By:
New posts
Search forums
Menu
Log in
Register
Install the app
Install
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
I am not in a good place
JavaScript is disabled. For a better experience, please enable JavaScript in your browser before proceeding.
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly.
You should upgrade or use an
alternative browser
.
Reply to thread
Message
<blockquote data-quote="Hound dog" data-source="post: 362202" data-attributes="member: 84"><p>I simply refuse to give up.</p><p></p><p>At this point I'm not sure if that's because I'm a glutton for misery or if I have developed into a person who will. not. quit. <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/tongue.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":tongue:" title="tongue :tongue:" data-shortname=":tongue:" /></p><p></p><p>Clincals went somewhat better today. I gave 3 shots......with no issues....with normal syringes. To hear my patients talk, I'm as good at giving shots as I am at drawing blood, evidently I don't hurt them. I hung piggy back medications and set the IV machine to run it. I did an insulin shot without the instructor......nervous, but did it. Cuz she trusted me to do it. We did 4 "exams" today that are from the Nclux review for the RN program. Instructor has been doing them with us so we can judge what we actually DO know......and where we may need more study. If I'd taken them as normal exams, I'd have gotten good grades all of them. They were fairly easy, and those I missed we either haven't covered the material yet.....or I misread the question and what it was asking for.</p><p></p><p>Then I come home utterly exhausted. And easy child calls me out of nowhere, says I need a break NOW and she's taking me to Red Lobster for dinner! So 10 mins later I'm on my way to cincy. lol Good meal by the way. But she also lets me vent in a big way because she has been there done that and understands how it feels. It did help some.</p><p></p><p>I come home and a classmate pops up in chat on my fb page asking what I got on the last pharm exam. So I knew grades were posted. I go look. It is a ZERO!!!! <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/surprise.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":surprise:" title="surprise :surprise:" data-shortname=":surprise:" /><img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/surprise.png" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":surprise:" title="surprise :surprise:" data-shortname=":surprise:" /> <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/emoticons/faint.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":faint:" title="faint :faint:" data-shortname=":faint:" /></p><p></p><p>I nearly had a heart attack......and I'm talking literally! My grades have not been so hot in pharm this quarter like I said.......there is simply no possible way I could come back with enough points to cover a ZERO!!! So I dug out the teacher's home phone number and at 9:30pm I called her at home. I told her that when I went to submit the exam I had had issues......but that the site did tell me it was submitted so I didn't email her or call her to tell her about it. She sounded like *yeah, sure that's what they all say........* and said she'd have to check. So she does and she said that the grade didn't make sense so she called up my exam itself.......and started laughing while telling me she was sorry. Seems she'd gotten a new puppy this week and puppy was sick and having diarrhea all over her house.....she was in the middle of grading my exam when puppy cut loose really bad....went to clean it up.....and evidently didn't realize she hadn't finished and went on to another exam. So she graded it for me right then and there. I got a very much needed 82 percent. WHEW!!!!!</p><p></p><p>My kids have all told me that I'm not a mother this week, nor am I to answer my Mom's calls (that one is a bit harder to step away from). This next week until wed will be solely focused on studying for finals. Except for Saturday when I have to do an extra clinical. And even then I will come home to study yet again.</p><p></p><p>I am maxed out on the stress. I simply can not take anymore. Instructors assure us next quarter is a breeze compared to all the other quarters. And it's super fast as it only last 8 wks because it's a summer session. I will be DONE with the nitemare known as pharm in the classroom setting.</p><p></p><p>I hope the instructors are right. I really do.</p><p></p><p>I'm still scared. My anxiety is still high. I still can't do the boom boom boom responses. I am still stressed to the hilt. My memory is still giving me big issues. But I am NOT letting go of this dream. Although I'll admit that big fat zero nearly did it to me. husband is still a royal PITA, but my kids have rallied around me. So I will be ok. I may fail, but I'll be d*mned if I just give up and walk away. I've worked too hard to give up.</p><p></p><p>Thanks so much for the moral support. I needed it so very badly. I was not in a good place at all when I posted. I am in a better place today.....not wonderful, but better.</p><p></p><p>Tiapet.........you can bet your bottom dollar the DON will be getting an ear full once our class graduates. Actually she has all along, but we'll really let loose once we've walked across that stage!</p><p></p><p>Hugs to all of you! <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite8" alt=":D" title="Big Grin :D" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":D" /> I love you guys!</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Hound dog, post: 362202, member: 84"] I simply refuse to give up. At this point I'm not sure if that's because I'm a glutton for misery or if I have developed into a person who will. not. quit. :raspberry-tounge: Clincals went somewhat better today. I gave 3 shots......with no issues....with normal syringes. To hear my patients talk, I'm as good at giving shots as I am at drawing blood, evidently I don't hurt them. I hung piggy back medications and set the IV machine to run it. I did an insulin shot without the instructor......nervous, but did it. Cuz she trusted me to do it. We did 4 "exams" today that are from the Nclux review for the RN program. Instructor has been doing them with us so we can judge what we actually DO know......and where we may need more study. If I'd taken them as normal exams, I'd have gotten good grades all of them. They were fairly easy, and those I missed we either haven't covered the material yet.....or I misread the question and what it was asking for. Then I come home utterly exhausted. And easy child calls me out of nowhere, says I need a break NOW and she's taking me to Red Lobster for dinner! So 10 mins later I'm on my way to cincy. lol Good meal by the way. But she also lets me vent in a big way because she has been there done that and understands how it feels. It did help some. I come home and a classmate pops up in chat on my fb page asking what I got on the last pharm exam. So I knew grades were posted. I go look. It is a ZERO!!!! :surprised1::surprised1: :faint: I nearly had a heart attack......and I'm talking literally! My grades have not been so hot in pharm this quarter like I said.......there is simply no possible way I could come back with enough points to cover a ZERO!!! So I dug out the teacher's home phone number and at 9:30pm I called her at home. I told her that when I went to submit the exam I had had issues......but that the site did tell me it was submitted so I didn't email her or call her to tell her about it. She sounded like *yeah, sure that's what they all say........* and said she'd have to check. So she does and she said that the grade didn't make sense so she called up my exam itself.......and started laughing while telling me she was sorry. Seems she'd gotten a new puppy this week and puppy was sick and having diarrhea all over her house.....she was in the middle of grading my exam when puppy cut loose really bad....went to clean it up.....and evidently didn't realize she hadn't finished and went on to another exam. So she graded it for me right then and there. I got a very much needed 82 percent. WHEW!!!!! My kids have all told me that I'm not a mother this week, nor am I to answer my Mom's calls (that one is a bit harder to step away from). This next week until wed will be solely focused on studying for finals. Except for Saturday when I have to do an extra clinical. And even then I will come home to study yet again. I am maxed out on the stress. I simply can not take anymore. Instructors assure us next quarter is a breeze compared to all the other quarters. And it's super fast as it only last 8 wks because it's a summer session. I will be DONE with the nitemare known as pharm in the classroom setting. I hope the instructors are right. I really do. I'm still scared. My anxiety is still high. I still can't do the boom boom boom responses. I am still stressed to the hilt. My memory is still giving me big issues. But I am NOT letting go of this dream. Although I'll admit that big fat zero nearly did it to me. husband is still a royal PITA, but my kids have rallied around me. So I will be ok. I may fail, but I'll be d*mned if I just give up and walk away. I've worked too hard to give up. Thanks so much for the moral support. I needed it so very badly. I was not in a good place at all when I posted. I am in a better place today.....not wonderful, but better. Tiapet.........you can bet your bottom dollar the DON will be getting an ear full once our class graduates. Actually she has all along, but we'll really let loose once we've walked across that stage! Hugs to all of you! :happy: I love you guys! [/QUOTE]
Insert quotes…
Verification
Post reply
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
I am not in a good place
Top