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<blockquote data-quote="saving grace" data-source="post: 99301" data-attributes="member: 1538"><p>Well I found out that he had been using a few times in the past couple of months, pretty much when the program stopped testing him weekly and went to bimonthly testing. then he got high Friday and was using all weekend. He was supposed to sit down with me and girlfriend last night and tell all he said he felt bad etc.. well that never happened, he used all day then showed up at the house and went in the bathroom and used again. I locked him out, drove girlfriend home then came home and broke down. I went to bed around midnight took a sleeping pill and finally cried myself to sleep. He found an open window and came in, I didnt know this until this morning as I was leaving to go to work. He never did have any boundaries. I feel so violated that he feels he can just come in my home like that when I have locked him out. I couldnt deal with any drama this morning babygirl was getting ready for school and we were going to work. I came to work and emailed his doctor at the program he is in asking her to call me asap. If I dont hear from her by this afternoon I will call the main number. I hope they have an idea as to what I should do with him. At this point I am crushed. I can barely breathe or even speak. I can not believe I am back in the place, this dark ugly world. </p><p>I always had the "if only" thoughts, if only he would get and stay in a program, if only he would be treated for his mental disorders, if only he was away from drugs long enough, if only if only if only. Well none of what I thought would work has, he is still the same addicted beast he had always been.</p><p></p><p>I am heartbroken</p><p>Thank you for being here, you are the only ones who understand what this is like</p><p></p><p>Grace</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="saving grace, post: 99301, member: 1538"] Well I found out that he had been using a few times in the past couple of months, pretty much when the program stopped testing him weekly and went to bimonthly testing. then he got high Friday and was using all weekend. He was supposed to sit down with me and girlfriend last night and tell all he said he felt bad etc.. well that never happened, he used all day then showed up at the house and went in the bathroom and used again. I locked him out, drove girlfriend home then came home and broke down. I went to bed around midnight took a sleeping pill and finally cried myself to sleep. He found an open window and came in, I didnt know this until this morning as I was leaving to go to work. He never did have any boundaries. I feel so violated that he feels he can just come in my home like that when I have locked him out. I couldnt deal with any drama this morning babygirl was getting ready for school and we were going to work. I came to work and emailed his doctor at the program he is in asking her to call me asap. If I dont hear from her by this afternoon I will call the main number. I hope they have an idea as to what I should do with him. At this point I am crushed. I can barely breathe or even speak. I can not believe I am back in the place, this dark ugly world. I always had the "if only" thoughts, if only he would get and stay in a program, if only he would be treated for his mental disorders, if only he was away from drugs long enough, if only if only if only. Well none of what I thought would work has, he is still the same addicted beast he had always been. I am heartbroken Thank you for being here, you are the only ones who understand what this is like Grace [/QUOTE]
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