What does depression feel like? I can't say I feel sad, but I certainly don't think Ive smiled a genuine smile in a long long time. I am angry and irritable but then again with three of these "great" kids I am outnumbered. My eldest who is 7, yes 7, has started stealing my things. She purposely took a sunflower oil I use on my skin because Im allergic to all the other ****, stuck it in her book bag and let her "friends" use it, she also took my sunglasses, my hairspray, my moms lotion, and NO its not for personal hygiene most nights I can't drag her into the tub. She doesn't know why, or atleast she isn't telling. She was grounded al weekend because she was doing the same thing. My middle girl, the 6 yr old is more "stable" right now, and for the most part so is Eric. I do have the added pressure that my mom isnt working and the day after my birthday last month her boyfriend walked out of his job, which leaves me as the only adult in the house with a full-time job. My mom is at a temp job but this week so far I had to leave work early cause Danae was sick at school, Thursday morning I have to take Eric to the new psychiatrist and Friday morning is Linda's turn, Danae turn in friday afternoon and Linda is seeing the new pediatrician at 1:30. I'm on this "diet" I've been doing well, I have lost 13 lbs total in one month and 5 inches total. In one hour on an elliptical I complete almost 5 miles. You know Im just tired of screaming and being frustrated, and feeling like this great big old bag of angry all the time. I've never actually been depressed so I need some feedback.HELP!!!!