Dottienumber2
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My deal
cliff notes: long story. I am in terrible pain. My daughter thinks that I had an affair with her x. I was drugged and raped. He is from brazil and no where to be found. I now suppect thereis more to his history. My daughter called everyone who would listen to her and told them i had the affair. (ten years later) She has issues herself but beside that.. She wants me to apologize for what I did. My now husband thinks I should suck it up and say I did. If I had done that to my mother I would disown her too.
I even had a polygraph taken to prove I didn't have an affair. A huge thing is no one seems to believe me. Not even my husband. He said maybe you did it. It was befor I knew you. Sick...
I put what happen away and ignored it for over ten years and it poped up when my daughter was having trouble with a boy friend. I could not see anybenifit at the time telling my daughter what happened. I really could not then because I really could remember everything and it was like a dream and to horrible to tell any one. Too much time had pasted. They were married at the time and I just couldn't go there.
Now I have repeated brake downs ie having to pull over in my car and just scream and cry until I can't anymore. I wear a hospital Mask at work and no one can see the tear just come while I am working without anyone seeing. Sad corellation is that I was sexually taken advantage of from about 6- 12 by a brother 6 years older than me. When I told a third grade teacher how I had so many brusised she just made a face at me. To this day no one believes that I didn't have a part in both of this messes. The time frame does not make sense why I didn't say anything and why I couldnt put things together to op. This time I was drugged and and totally like a deer in headlights I did not see it coming!!!! My mother on the other hand when I asked why she didn't come to my aid was because she said it was just normal kid stuff. No. It was not normal. She let it happen. I was drugged I could not defend myself again.
The only tiny window I have to connect with my daughter is her email. Knowing my daughter. She would love to put it on a face book etc. I don't want to explain this to the world.
She has eating disorders etc. my other daughter is bound not to tell me anything bAbout her but does. She tells me I should just leave her go that she has issues. Although they both have played me for the Single parent And had a messed up divorced childhood. The youngest at 36 is a sweetheart but I know I am buying her love to keep it open to keep them both. WHen I stopped handing out money is when they pull back
Now I an with a man that his son hate me too. His dad puts him before me. One example is we w Ere married and I asked that his son please knock before he came in so i Would be dressed. his son came running in and I ran into him square commando I thought it was his dad and scReamed not realizing who it was him with a baseball cap on. His dad thought it was funny even though he does not want me to wear low tops or too tight of pants.
His sons story is I am in right after his mom left his dad at age 16. I was the enemy no mater how I tried. I tried to kill him with kindness but you can't best a millionaire dad. He is so jealous that I get things he doesn't get. Which isn't true. His dad has given him almost 100k for him to play with that has not worked out. Why should he work. Like his dad said he is going to b a very rich man someday.
His son is a thug drop out and waiting to collect the millions that his dad has. His dad makes sure he is taken care of and doesn't work. SomehoW the kid has a nice girlfriend in pre medication. I suspect My husband may be paying her scHool bills to have his son keep her. His son and the girlfriend will not talk or be friendlY at all to me. I have been told they only have to be respectful to me. But duh. That means talking.
Liam told that I have to be the adult but at 24 and 20 they should b able to carry on a conversation. I work in the public and have no problem talking to anyone. My people bring me gifts, sent things they think I would like, most now I love history so they give me books send re reciepes on and on. I am a big time giver and so looked forward to having an extended family. The rest of my husbands family really likes me as far as I know. It's just the most important people in my life, my girls and what I thought would b my family .
If I give up does that make them right... Just go away
cliff notes: long story. I am in terrible pain. My daughter thinks that I had an affair with her x. I was drugged and raped. He is from brazil and no where to be found. I now suppect thereis more to his history. My daughter called everyone who would listen to her and told them i had the affair. (ten years later) She has issues herself but beside that.. She wants me to apologize for what I did. My now husband thinks I should suck it up and say I did. If I had done that to my mother I would disown her too.
I even had a polygraph taken to prove I didn't have an affair. A huge thing is no one seems to believe me. Not even my husband. He said maybe you did it. It was befor I knew you. Sick...
I put what happen away and ignored it for over ten years and it poped up when my daughter was having trouble with a boy friend. I could not see anybenifit at the time telling my daughter what happened. I really could not then because I really could remember everything and it was like a dream and to horrible to tell any one. Too much time had pasted. They were married at the time and I just couldn't go there.
Now I have repeated brake downs ie having to pull over in my car and just scream and cry until I can't anymore. I wear a hospital Mask at work and no one can see the tear just come while I am working without anyone seeing. Sad corellation is that I was sexually taken advantage of from about 6- 12 by a brother 6 years older than me. When I told a third grade teacher how I had so many brusised she just made a face at me. To this day no one believes that I didn't have a part in both of this messes. The time frame does not make sense why I didn't say anything and why I couldnt put things together to op. This time I was drugged and and totally like a deer in headlights I did not see it coming!!!! My mother on the other hand when I asked why she didn't come to my aid was because she said it was just normal kid stuff. No. It was not normal. She let it happen. I was drugged I could not defend myself again.
The only tiny window I have to connect with my daughter is her email. Knowing my daughter. She would love to put it on a face book etc. I don't want to explain this to the world.
She has eating disorders etc. my other daughter is bound not to tell me anything bAbout her but does. She tells me I should just leave her go that she has issues. Although they both have played me for the Single parent And had a messed up divorced childhood. The youngest at 36 is a sweetheart but I know I am buying her love to keep it open to keep them both. WHen I stopped handing out money is when they pull back
Now I an with a man that his son hate me too. His dad puts him before me. One example is we w Ere married and I asked that his son please knock before he came in so i Would be dressed. his son came running in and I ran into him square commando I thought it was his dad and scReamed not realizing who it was him with a baseball cap on. His dad thought it was funny even though he does not want me to wear low tops or too tight of pants.
His sons story is I am in right after his mom left his dad at age 16. I was the enemy no mater how I tried. I tried to kill him with kindness but you can't best a millionaire dad. He is so jealous that I get things he doesn't get. Which isn't true. His dad has given him almost 100k for him to play with that has not worked out. Why should he work. Like his dad said he is going to b a very rich man someday.
His son is a thug drop out and waiting to collect the millions that his dad has. His dad makes sure he is taken care of and doesn't work. SomehoW the kid has a nice girlfriend in pre medication. I suspect My husband may be paying her scHool bills to have his son keep her. His son and the girlfriend will not talk or be friendlY at all to me. I have been told they only have to be respectful to me. But duh. That means talking.
Liam told that I have to be the adult but at 24 and 20 they should b able to carry on a conversation. I work in the public and have no problem talking to anyone. My people bring me gifts, sent things they think I would like, most now I love history so they give me books send re reciepes on and on. I am a big time giver and so looked forward to having an extended family. The rest of my husbands family really likes me as far as I know. It's just the most important people in my life, my girls and what I thought would b my family .
If I give up does that make them right... Just go away
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