Star*
call 911........call 911
I just wanted to write a post that would let those of you who hurt over yesterday know that there is hope.
So in the last 18 years of his life - the first 5.5 years were with my x and Mothers day was a Stupid holiday. So there was never any mention of me, a card, or a little something from my son.
Then the last 13 years? Well I save everything - I've gotten 2 cards - both at the urging of DF, 2 African Violets and 2 plush animals. One year I got a wild rose bush. But I've never been recognized or appreciated in my mind.
So Saturday Dude and I went to the flea market. What started out as a day I figured I dread turned into a fun and profitable day. I told him at the onset I had one rule for the day - he rolled his eyes - and I said "WE must have fun." That changed the tone for the entire day - and we worked together and did have fun. I took it as my Mothers Day.
Well who would ever think = Sunday would have anything in store for me? I was quite satisfied with just changing the day to our fun on Saturday and even told everyone (I was so excited) that I had my Mother's day on Saturday.
Sunday - I got to sleep in. I didn't figure anything special was going on - but DF and Dude had gotten together and decided turkey dinner was good for the day. Then about 4:30 - DF went to get Dude and I rode along. He gave me a boquet of flowers and a card. I've never gotten flowers from him. We got in the car - and I needed to run into the grocery store and he handed me a box - I opened it and it was a rose gold and sterling necklace that said Nana in script with a heart around it. For my Mom!
I cried. He laughed and I said it was the sweetest thing he's ever done. No one TOLD him "MAKE SURE YOU GET GRANDMA something." he just did.
Later than night - he gave me a very lovely card - that said My Mother is a Blessing - and well - It should have come with a box of Puffs or a dish towel - he even hand wrote his own sentiment in it about how I've always been there for him, and he appreciates me and thanks for not giving up.
Okay gals at this point I'm a mess.....and then he takes another little pink box out of his pocket and it's got a butterfly necklace - rose gold and sterling....and he said - Thanks for giving me my wings Mom.
I'm now sobbing - and I'm not an emo kid.
But I have waited 18 years - for some incling, some sign - something - and while I said I don't like when other Moms go on and brag about their good days when they know I've had a bad one - I wanted to share this with those of you who are hurting. We've had SO few holidays together in his life - I can nearly count them on both hands in 18 years. Most were spent in Residential Treatment Center (RTC)'s or psychiatric hospitals, or juvenille jail - or foster homes.
I never expected this - but it could happen for anyone if it could happen to me.
I hope no matter how bad your day was - you know that despite these kids being able to tell you they appreciate and love you - they do.
Hugs -
Star
So in the last 18 years of his life - the first 5.5 years were with my x and Mothers day was a Stupid holiday. So there was never any mention of me, a card, or a little something from my son.
Then the last 13 years? Well I save everything - I've gotten 2 cards - both at the urging of DF, 2 African Violets and 2 plush animals. One year I got a wild rose bush. But I've never been recognized or appreciated in my mind.
So Saturday Dude and I went to the flea market. What started out as a day I figured I dread turned into a fun and profitable day. I told him at the onset I had one rule for the day - he rolled his eyes - and I said "WE must have fun." That changed the tone for the entire day - and we worked together and did have fun. I took it as my Mothers Day.
Well who would ever think = Sunday would have anything in store for me? I was quite satisfied with just changing the day to our fun on Saturday and even told everyone (I was so excited) that I had my Mother's day on Saturday.
Sunday - I got to sleep in. I didn't figure anything special was going on - but DF and Dude had gotten together and decided turkey dinner was good for the day. Then about 4:30 - DF went to get Dude and I rode along. He gave me a boquet of flowers and a card. I've never gotten flowers from him. We got in the car - and I needed to run into the grocery store and he handed me a box - I opened it and it was a rose gold and sterling necklace that said Nana in script with a heart around it. For my Mom!
I cried. He laughed and I said it was the sweetest thing he's ever done. No one TOLD him "MAKE SURE YOU GET GRANDMA something." he just did.
Later than night - he gave me a very lovely card - that said My Mother is a Blessing - and well - It should have come with a box of Puffs or a dish towel - he even hand wrote his own sentiment in it about how I've always been there for him, and he appreciates me and thanks for not giving up.
Okay gals at this point I'm a mess.....and then he takes another little pink box out of his pocket and it's got a butterfly necklace - rose gold and sterling....and he said - Thanks for giving me my wings Mom.
I'm now sobbing - and I'm not an emo kid.
But I have waited 18 years - for some incling, some sign - something - and while I said I don't like when other Moms go on and brag about their good days when they know I've had a bad one - I wanted to share this with those of you who are hurting. We've had SO few holidays together in his life - I can nearly count them on both hands in 18 years. Most were spent in Residential Treatment Center (RTC)'s or psychiatric hospitals, or juvenille jail - or foster homes.
I never expected this - but it could happen for anyone if it could happen to me.
I hope no matter how bad your day was - you know that despite these kids being able to tell you they appreciate and love you - they do.
Hugs -
Star