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In a totally new place and need perspective? Cedar? Anyone?
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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 665192" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>Me, too. And Have Gun Will Travel and Rawhide.</p><p></p><p>They see this as weakness and do it more.</p><p>Yes, she did. My Mother wanted me back in her life. But she was very angry. So she reached out and punished me, in the worst way she could. Just like the screams and to tell the caretaker, I don't care if she comes or not.</p><p>It is too terrible to say, Cedar. At first I became very depressed, like this, but not as bad or as long. Maybe 6 months. Then I became convinced I was a child abuse victim. Sexual abuse. Although I had no memories. I even went to Incest Survivor's Anonymous meetings.</p><p></p><p>I am so confused. I cannot even find the words to say what I am fearing now.</p><p></p><p>I do not have the stamina right now to have to deal with my father. </p><p></p><p>He became a hopeless drunk. Completely degraded and me with him.</p><p></p><p>My father wanted to pull me into his own degradation. There was nothing to fight for. Without destroying myself.</p><p></p><p>The thing is Cedar and SWOT, our fathers had responsibility to fight for us. They did not. There is a point past which they do not deserve protecting. Except that they were all we had.</p><p>Yes. This is the truest thing of all.</p><p>Yes.</p><p>Yes.</p><p></p><p>I feel very sad for us.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 665192, member: 18958"] Me, too. And Have Gun Will Travel and Rawhide. They see this as weakness and do it more. Yes, she did. My Mother wanted me back in her life. But she was very angry. So she reached out and punished me, in the worst way she could. Just like the screams and to tell the caretaker, I don't care if she comes or not. It is too terrible to say, Cedar. At first I became very depressed, like this, but not as bad or as long. Maybe 6 months. Then I became convinced I was a child abuse victim. Sexual abuse. Although I had no memories. I even went to Incest Survivor's Anonymous meetings. I am so confused. I cannot even find the words to say what I am fearing now. I do not have the stamina right now to have to deal with my father. He became a hopeless drunk. Completely degraded and me with him. My father wanted to pull me into his own degradation. There was nothing to fight for. Without destroying myself. The thing is Cedar and SWOT, our fathers had responsibility to fight for us. They did not. There is a point past which they do not deserve protecting. Except that they were all we had. Yes. This is the truest thing of all. Yes. Yes. I feel very sad for us. [/QUOTE]
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