So I needed to get this off my chest. Some of you know our son is returning home next Monday on his 20th Birthday. There is reason for optimism..but growth will need to happen..even slow growth. He came home for the weekend..per counselor instruction, I posted that on my thread. But today...I love my son, but I don't particularity like him. I don't feel bad about it right now, I had a bad day Tues..and cried it out. Now I'm battle ready. Well, best I can be. He agreed to our terms, carted his Boundary Contract back with him to talk to his counselor about it. He is Waay over medicated, and has a doctor to evaluate him here, a weekly therapist..all he agreed with. Along with his AA mtgs and a sponsor so he can finish the steps...he's almost there. Even got his old job back. But I don't like him....I love him to the moon and back...but am holding onto resentment. Every photo..every family event I think about him and what he was hiding from us..now we know everything, and well..IT WAS HARD TO HEAR THE TRUTH. I need time...I don't know if I will get over it...but it's there, and it is what it is.