If some one told me that they are emotionally in very bad place and have hard time coping, I would most likely not advise them to take a extra day off work, take excessive amount of hard liquor and go alone to drink to the cabin right next to open water. It just doesn't sound a winning plan or healthy and responsible way to deal. That of course doesn't mean, I would follow my own advice. So that was exactly what I did Saturday evening after using my day running from graduation party to another. I had planed this over three months, but wasn't able to do it before now. Or more truthfully I was scared, that when I start crying over things I need to cry for, I will not be able to stop it. So after bottling up my feelings and concentrating on being strong, stable and supportive, I was finally able to let go for the moment with help of some vodka and gin. my eyes may still be little red and my voice is very hoarse from bawling, screaming and puking and last night, according husband, I stank rather remarkable way and even today I haven't felt like doing much anything. But I haven't felt this light in some time. I know catharsis doesn't build a new and isn't much of the long term solution. But darn that it can be needed at times.