I'm basically new here. I've written in on a couple of occasions, and read here often. My difficult child is an 8yr old boy. There have been questions with him since he was 3. Had him evaluated at 4 for asperger's. Although he showed some characteristics, he didn't fit the bill. They suspected some Sensory Integration Disorder (SID). We've been struggling through the years, but getting by. There are always questions and problems that arise in school, but then it seems to just quietly go away. Well this yr has been different. He is really having much more of a rough time. I feel like him and I hit a brick wall. We were fighting something terrible. I feel soooo bad about it. But feel like I am really having trouble with it all. I started taking him to see a childhood phsycologist back in January. It has been going well. The dr and difficult child seem to have a good realtionship and my son really enjoys going and venting. Which is a real blessing. A couple of weeks ago he got in to some trouble at school and said some horrible and threatening things about his teacher. Which he really doesn't like his teacher. But then again he really doesn't like any authority figure at all. The phsycologist was concerned with the matter and suggested that maybe it's time to try him on some medications to even out his moods more. He said right now the things he says are just empty statements out of anger, but as they get older is when you really need to start worrying. I am having such a rough time with these statements. They just blow me away. I asked the psycologist what we were medicating for. He said a mood type disorder. So I've been thinking about this. In the mean time I've gotten in touch with a neuropsyc, through you guys suggestions on this site. I was quite suprised with the cost of this. And would think about it. Yesterday my son had another rough day with some very tough statements, I called his psycologist who talks me through these times. He again suggested the medications and said the insurance is now really pushing for a physciatrist type evaluaiton and basically want to know why it hasn't been done sooner. I asked the psycologist what his gut feeling on my son is at this point and he mentioned a mood disorder, odd, Sensory Integration Disorder (SID), and he said he could probably put about 5 labels on him. But that is not up to him to do. He said my difficult child has a very different way of thinking. I have to tell you this all blew me away. I don't know if I'm ready for all of this. It all sounds so scarey to me. I thought he maybe just had a few little problems going on. I am so upset, I can't stop weeping. I just want this poor beautiful little boy fixed. I need him to be ok. How do you guys deal with this. It is breaking my heart, and I just don't know if I'm strong enough to do this anymore. I love him so deeply and this just all sounds so final and hopeless to me. I know I will pull myself together and do the right thing, but right now I feel so lost. I am so sorry to go on like this, but you all seem to know so much. Any help or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. So far we've had meetings at school but more just interventions on finding what works for him. Thank you, Tanya