Hi there! I am mom to a son (11years old) who is diagnosed severe ADHD, Bi Polar, and recently ODD. He's taking a medication for the bipolar, and I recently took him off of Risperidone. The ADHD has been untreated for 1.5 years as we have tried everything without success. He's also suicidal and has tried twice (first time when he was 6). He's very intelligent and a kind, sweet kid. I'm dealing with my own set of ADHD and BiPolar which is untreated (I've found that the medications make me a zombie, and I can't parent at all). So I have my melt downs when things hit the fan. Does anyone have any advice for helping me to be able to walk away, to relax, to not loose my temper? I've tried going into my room and closing the door, counting to ten or so, and even just giving up. But it all makes me madder. I'm not always melting down, but when I do I am consumed by guilt and just want to give up.