difficult child has been talking to a girl from his English class. She sent him a message on Myspace the other day that said "where were you 4th block...I missed you" That was the day of his psychiatrist appointment. He has been talking to her on AIM. I asked the English teacher about her. The English teacher is the one who has had difficult child help her cook/cater/serve the Prom and a banquest this past week. She also helps him with homework after school, and she is who he goes to if he needs someone to talk to. Yesterday - difficult child was on the computer talking to this girl. I asked to use the computer for a second. He handed it over and said "mom - I almost have a girlfriend. In that second the phone rang. A friend of his asked him to go to Milwaukee to a concert. Free. His sister got sick and couldn't go and his mom would drive and pick up. difficult child was SO excited. First someone actually called him. Second...to take him to a concert... We talked to him, it was a last minute deal. Sister was going to go, but has her graduation today and decided to stay to rest up. difficult child checked in a couple times as I asked. Then about midnight he texted me and said they were on their way home and he is having a panic attack. Through my texting - which is very slow, I told him he is ok, to breathe slow. He tends to breathe real fast and then gets tingly and such. I kept writing how they are 30 minutes away, 20 minutes away.. he is fine. He asked for a xanax. I knew then it was bad because he won't take that. He has only ever taken one once. I asked him to call me. He said no because he didn't want anyone to know. So - husband is in the other room and I hear him CALL. I ran out to husband and said he doesn't want anyone to call.!!!!! He got home and said he did ok. Was proud of himself for talking himself down a bit. He did take the xanax and asked to lay in my bed. Fear he was going to die and wanted me to watch him. I told him that was fine, we could watch a show. But when he felt better he needed to move to his room. He fell asleep immediately. Has not woken up yet. He said his face felt all tight and numb..wanted to know if he was having a stroke. I told him he was fine. We didn't ask about the concert, he did say he had fun. The attack happened on the way home. So What would of set it off? He has gone to hundreds of concerts. I am worried now that he won't go to things now afraid of a panic attack. AND - we have had a season pass to six flags every year since easy child was little. difficult child use to love going. We would drop him off with friends and he would spend every day there. Last year he seemed a big more afraid. Didn't go until the very end of the season. Didn't plan on going this year, but for $69.99, I couldn't pass it up. One day is $54.00. That was last years price. Anyway, his math/physics class has a field trip their on Thursday. I have off of work. I do not have a season pass. I was wondering if I should take him. He hates taking the bus, everything is loud and echo's. Then I am also wondering if I should go with incase he has a panic attack. Or - if I should just be across the street at the mall. I can find many things to do at the mall for 5 or 6 hours. I want him to have fun, but if he has an attack, that may ruin the entire season, afraid to go again. Then there are his headaches. What if he gets a bad headache? He use to be such a daredevil about 5 years ago. Now he seems to be afraid of more and more of the rides. Should I talk to the teacher? I am afraid if I do that they may not let him go. I am tempted to pack up some excedrin or Advil and maybe a xanax. If he knows he has it that may just prevent anything from happening. However, on the other hand...if he gets caught with it, that can mean trouble. If I am across the street i can run over to the park and meet him at the gate if he needs it. One problem there is I have had so many classes from work, that I have not been available to work my second job. I don't want them to fire me. And I have a CPR/ first aid class coming up that I won't be available to work, and also a Forklift certification class. LOL - like I need that. They won't let me touch a pallet jack to move a pallet of paper unless I have that certificate. I don't even know where a forklift IS. But the pallet jack I could use to bring a pallet of paper into the printer room. Been there two years and haven't needed it yet. Should I talk to the teacher? Should I tell her if he has an attack just to send him to the first aid room. Six Flags has an entire house like thing just for first aid. Should i mention anything? Just let difficult child know me or easy child will be available if needed? easy child doesn't believe in mental illness. Says it is all made up. And no such thing as ADHD - Parents make all this up. HE has LIVED with difficult child. OMG. He says it is MY fault he is this way. that I MADE him like this. So, if something happens like a panic attack - easy child tells difficult child to "just get over it". Should I just turn down work again - and make sure I am available?