Malika
Well-Known Member
Can I just share how I'm feeling without getting messages about how I'm making a mistake or being foolish or whatever? Well, I can't stop you saying whatever you like but I'm just saying I'd prefer just to share how it is for me... And I don't mean to step on any toes or belittle anyone else's decisions by what I say. This is purely personal.
We saw J's psychiatrist on Friday. I talked about wanting to try stimulants with J just to see and she has given me a prescricption for Quasym (a variation of the Ritalin molecule marketed in France), for 28 days, which I got from the pharmacy this morning.
The thing is... when I think of giving him these things, I feel somewhat sick. I feel I cannot do it, I cannot justify putting that stuff into his little body! I know it is supposed to be just a trial but I feel terrified of it... of making him sick, nauseous, unable to sleep. I am sure if I told him what it was, he would object, say he doesn't want it. At what age does a patient have rights to decide their own treatment??
Starting Wednesday, there is three days holiday in France and we are going to England for the long weekend on Thursday. I thought I might start it on the Wednesday so that I would be with him and he would have settled down a bit for next week at school.
But it's as if I'm proposing to give him cocaine! I don't know that I'm going to be able to do it, and I suspect they may just get put away in a high cupboard.
Call me ridiculous... but this is how it is...
We saw J's psychiatrist on Friday. I talked about wanting to try stimulants with J just to see and she has given me a prescricption for Quasym (a variation of the Ritalin molecule marketed in France), for 28 days, which I got from the pharmacy this morning.
The thing is... when I think of giving him these things, I feel somewhat sick. I feel I cannot do it, I cannot justify putting that stuff into his little body! I know it is supposed to be just a trial but I feel terrified of it... of making him sick, nauseous, unable to sleep. I am sure if I told him what it was, he would object, say he doesn't want it. At what age does a patient have rights to decide their own treatment??
Starting Wednesday, there is three days holiday in France and we are going to England for the long weekend on Thursday. I thought I might start it on the Wednesday so that I would be with him and he would have settled down a bit for next week at school.
But it's as if I'm proposing to give him cocaine! I don't know that I'm going to be able to do it, and I suspect they may just get put away in a high cupboard.
Call me ridiculous... but this is how it is...