Hello, i haven't posted for awhile. To recap, about 5 weeks ago difficult child was thrown out of sober house for missing a mandatory meeting, staying at brothers house, with us back to paying for his food and gas and keeping his dog in basement since she can't be be near our cats. He got a job after weeks off "trying" and always needs ridiculous amounts of money for gas and cigarettes food etc.. The job has lasted about a week and I am away at a family wedding with husband and youngest daughter. Got a text from oldest easy child daughter to call him as he had a quick question. I called him from daughter's phone as he does not have my cell number. He just wanted to tell me he missed work cuz no gas money. I am 2000 miles away and left him with plenty of money for gas. I told him don't try to get in touch with me while I'm away and I'm sorry he doesn't know how to live. I am seeing the same horrendous disfunction that was a nightmare last summer. I may have to go back to enforcing the restraining order in place and get him arrested for calling me at work constantly which is only place he can call me at. It is such an incredible burden. I am meditating and going to counseling but I just can't believe it may come to him going to jail. It is a small town and having him homeless and just so incapable of living is awfuL!!!!! I dread another summer like I had last year. It never goes away. I have managed to get much more detachment than a year ago but boy oh boy I am tired.