kt fell apart last night.....the largest meltdown I've seen since before husband died. Told me that she's afraid to talk about husband because I sometimes start crying. She doesn't want me to cry. AND that she's very angry at husband. While trying to explain to kt that tears & anger are normal she dissociated to an infant. Sucking her thumb, needing to be swaddled, etc. I was able to coax her back with sensory input & getting her into a warm bath. Ughhh. Now she's refusing to leave the house. Completely. This morning I have a toddler on my hands; she took her medications & was very compliant but told me she's scared & won't go to school. So I tucked kt back into bed, called school, & then called crisis team to put them in high alert. I'm about to call therapist & get her in here come heck or high water. I'm flexible & have let therapist put kt on hold while she handled some other kid's emergency ~ it's time to deal with kt's.