Hello Friends I don't post often any more, but I visit the site frequently. My difficult child just finished her junior year in college and is now officially a college senior. When all the grades were posted and her classification had been changed to senior, she called me. She was so proud and so was I. She goes to school out of state (where one of my sisters live) and we're planning sort of a mini-family reunion when we go next year for her graduation. She works part-time and has a 2.6 GPA. I always hesitate to say my difficult child is doing well because so many times in the past it has come back to bite me. But I'm actually starting to exhale (I hope I don't regret it)! Like so many of you, I have been through so much with my difficult child. At one time my biggest fear was that she would have a baby, then it was that she wouldn't graduate from high school, then it was that she would end up in jail. Then, it was could I just hold on until I could kick her out of the house. From those that know my family's struggle, I have received compliments on how I turned my difficult child around. I always say that my difficult child did it all. It was only when I stopped trying to fix things that things got better. My company was bought by another firm and I took a buyout package and took early retirement. My boyfriend and I bought a foreclosed home in a smaller town about 100 miles out of the city and are enjoying fixing it up. My difficult child calls everyday and she ends the conversation by saying she loves me. I still struggle with forgiving myself. Even now I still wonder whether I should have done something differently when my difficult child was young and I replay things that happened over and over. When I read the posts here I think "it's not your fault" but somehow I cannot apply this to me. I'm still a work in progress I guess.