100 cats might be a bit excessive. At that point people in suits come in and the neighbors start gawking and it's jut not pretty. Besides, that's a lot of litter box duty.
Other than that, it sounds good to me.
BBK made a lot of sense. When I was first divorced, I was lonely a lot. And for a lot of years. I cried myself to sleep often.
I'm not lonely anymore and haven't been for a long time. I don't know when it happened, just that it did. I think when I stopped determining my value by a lack of a man in my life and by valuing myself for who I am. That took a long time.
And of course, determining my value by whether or not I had a man made me make some really stupid choices when it came to men. I wasn't looking for someone I wanted to be with, I just didn't want to be alone.
I *love* being single. It would take someone pretty extraordinary to make me change my status now.
I remember years ago - when I was still making stupid men choices - friends telling me that I was too picky.
I wasn't picky enough.
I'm not willing to settle. I have no 'need' to. I don't feel a need to have someone in my life so when I decide to bring someone in it will be because I want to. And I will not again settle for less than I deserve.
And neither should you. You're one tough lady with a loving and compassionate heart. You deserve someone that recognizes, respects and compliments that.
The loneliness - it's part of the process you're going through - grieving, learning, reinventing yourself. You'll get there
(((hugs)))