amazing, each and every one of you. I really do mean that. Words can't truly explain the level of support, guidance and assistance I have felt and received this past year from everyone here. I have joined forums before, yet I've never really ever experienced anything like all of you and the unconditional support in which is given to each and every member here. Where I was a year ago when I joined, that is difficult child and I. Where we are now, me personally and difficult child's level of managabiity (ok i can't spell lol) is largely in part to everyone here. Yup, holidays tear me up. We all have our struggles, and they vary in order and severity yet it's all relative and at the end of the day each and every person here always digs down into that unknown spot deep down inside whether it be to let go of something we know we shouldn't be in, or to put one foot infront of the other and see that light at the end of the tunnel. You are all an amazing bunch of strong and capable woman, and ok the men we have here as well lol, and you should pat yourselves on the back for not only having the capability it takes to raise children like ours yet also to juggle all the other varying issues we face in our families and personal struggles. Ok, hallmark moment over, LOL. I hope everyone has a great holiday and I just wanted to make sure I thanked everyone.