had mtg. today they discharged difficult child. said they can't fix her. she needs to be in a facility with more therapy available. a long long story that isnt' worth even sharing to be honest. i asked to see difficult child. i went in the room it was by far the saddest thing i've ever seen. she was heavily sedated. they put her on lithium, haldol, seroquel, ativan and some other medication i've never heard of all without my approval. guards were coming in with nurses to administor medications to her and when she wouldnt' swallow they gave her a shot with a huge guard standing over in an eating disorder unit? she was completely flat, didnt even recognize me. wasnt' even that responsive, in her pajamas in the middle of afternoon laying on a slightly peed plastic sheet under her. she trembled and said is this real is it you mom are you really here? it took her at least five minutes to realize it was me and i was really there. it was horrifying. her lips were cracked and dry she was laying in bed holding a picture of me and her crying with the blankets over her and the door closed. state she has been in now for days upon days. she was on bedrest because she fainted unbeknownst me. she lost 8 pounds while there so her weight is now at a critical point. no urinalysis or iv done after fainting. illegal with all the medications. i almost hit the dr. i told the entire staff off. i loaded truck 3 hours worth of toys, clothes, etc. with my mom sitting with-her while i did it. al she did was lay in the bed the entire time. she was totally out of it. she had a fever also of 100. difficult child is home now. she slept most of way home. i did give her the seroquel tonight very low dose. i called all her outside treatment providers. put them on alert and bringing her to peds in the a.m. all i can say is she is traumatized i think by the experience. she cried once home in bed. i read to her and she said i'm afriad i'll wake up in the hospital again. i'm afraid i'll die overnight because im so thin. before bed i bought her a vanilla shake she drank 3/4 of it, 2 glasses of o.j. and chicken broth an entire bowl. all i can say is my mom gut was screaming at me the entire time. ididnt' listen that will never ever happen again. she is sleeping now. i swear to you guys i wanted to sleep with her yet had to remind myself to begin healthy habits and normalcy again. yet i've checked on her at least 5 times tonight. words cannot begin to describe.