Okay so thanks to Remeron I gained 25 pounds last year. Normally I'm super cautious about weight gain (used to be 120 pounds and a size four) so I'm quite upset about letting myself gain so much weight. Yes the medications are partly to blame. I started snacking heavily once I started Remeron. I used to eat three meals a day and not snack at all. On the Remeron I was hungry ALL the time. So I ate chips and cookies at night after dinner. So basically I have 25 pounds to lose. During the summer I watched what I ate carefully and lost ten of those pounds. Then Halloween hit, and I cheated. We had a big party at work with lots of snacks and sweets and I over indulged. Instead of being super strict the next day and going back on my diet, I cheated again by having some of the kids' Halloween candy. After that I continued to cheat every single day. I haven't weighed myself recently because I'm too scared to. I know I gained back all of the ten pounds I lost during the summer. I probably gained even more weight on top of it. I am sooooooo mad at myself! Now I'm right back where I started. Originally, during the summer when I first started dieting, I had planned to lose all my weight before Christmas. There goes THAT plan. So now I'm back at square one. I just re-started my diet today. My boyfriend is also on a diet to lose about 40 pounds and he hasn't cheated so far and he's lost ten pounds. I'm jealous. So now I'm back to being super strict eating 1200 calories a day and I'm cranky. I already ate 960 calories so far today and I have my healthy choice dinner saved for tonight that will take me to just ten calories over 1200. So I'm being good but I really don't feel like it. I'm starting to get sick, thanks to difficult child and her flu, and all I want right now is comfort food. I want a nice big fat cheeseburger and fries. Can't do it though. I gotta get back on track with my diet. I'm really hoping this time I can stick with it. Anybody else trying to lose weight? If so maybe we can support each other? I am very unhappy with my size right now and I am anxious to finally lose it all this time!