I have felt down for so long. I look around at my house and just want to go back to my room. I walk out to feed my boys, but want to walk back into my room cuz I feel safe. I have been diagnosis'd with an anxiety disorder (Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)) and I do have panic attacks (I throw up) and have adhd and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). The panic attacks hit when I least expect it. I will be thinking of the school or whats happening and all of a sudden I am gagging and throw up. My boys have AS and we have had a year of hell with the schools. So much that I had to get a lawyer. They have missed a year of school due to rages I couldn't control and I just can't take it anymore. From reading here I have learned alot about ABA and Behavior modification and that has helped tremondously, but I am still so depressed. I have tried Lexapro, Celexia and trazadone (had to stop due to restless leg syndrome), tried Zoloft (worked great but had alot of sweating issues making me feel very uncomfortable in 80 degree weather) tried Wellbrutin, worked great for the smoking but had horrible side affects, and prozac did nothing for me...... UGH. I do get therapy with a doctor, but I am still so down. I don't want to hurt myself or anyone else, but I am still so down. I just don't want to leave my room or the computer at times.