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ML
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I called mansters psychiatrist today because he was having what I thought of as medication side effects. She told me that she was concerned that I was clearly having trouble with the medication issue in general. She felt that I have been looking for problems and that I was overreacting and that I could have waited till our Friday appointment (incidentally I also got in trouble once for waiting). I think its true that I have trouble with the medication route because so many people here have shared bad experiences and also have said that their kids do better without them completely (specifically those on the AS spectrum). This is clearly a case of me allowing the experiences of others to influence me too much. All of my friends in real life have tended to be rather naturalists and have shared caution and warning as I have gone down this path. I dont feel supported in my journey. Perhaps a stronger person wouldnt need the validation but I guess I do. This is so hard. I love my son so much and just want to do the best by him. I dont want to make him worse but his quality of life is suffering and I avoided trying medications for years. I vowed I would only medicate to make his life easier, not mine. I have not found anything that has given me a wow factor yet but I thought this Zoloft was close. *Am* I looking for side effects too closely and maybe subconsciously sabotaging any efforts in this direction?
And even as I type this I feel so vulnerable and needy and feel disgusted to have such uncertainty and doubt. I just want to feel like Im doing the right thing. Do we ever get that?
ML
And even as I type this I feel so vulnerable and needy and feel disgusted to have such uncertainty and doubt. I just want to feel like Im doing the right thing. Do we ever get that?
ML