Beautiful Disaster

[amazeofgrace]

this is the song that I was listening to and crying over S2BX last nite

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DfblfF2_R0"]YouTube - Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster[/ame]

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

 

[amazeofgrace]

and tonight the song has changed and I will trade tears for traditional 80's head banging

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLA8EvzA8Yk"]YouTube - Kelly Clarkson - Don't Waste Your Time[/ame]

(did I mention I love Kelly Clarkson)

It's over, it's over, it's over:

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You're callin'
You're talkin'
You're tryin'
Tryin' to get in
But it's over, it's over, it's over
Friend

Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over
You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over, it's over my friend
Don't waste my time

 

[Big Bad Kitty]

Aw honey.

I've been split up with Matt for five years, and I STILL cry every single time I hear The Dance (Garth Brooks) or Austin (Blake Shelton).

It is our way of grieving, not necessarily the man, but the life we once had WITH the man.

Big hugs.

 

[amazeofgrace]

I think I need to get off the puter, I just splurged and bought Kelly Clarkson/Reba concert tickets for October. Bad bad bad, but making memories and living all the same, even if it means more debt

 

[flutterbee]

This is the one that always reminds me of my ex-boyfriend...the one that really broke my heart. I always knew he was mistake. But, of all the mistakes I've made, he was my favorite.

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHrL7_U66jE"]YouTube - Sheryl Crow - My Favorite Mistake[/ame]



ETA: She must have been in the same relationship when she wrote that song. Every single word was my relationship with mr. wrong-but-it-feels-so-right. It used to break my heart and make me cry. Now it makes me smile when I remember. I know that he's a major loser, got married, had a couple kids, walked out and his wife filed for divorce in his absence. But, I remember the way I felt when I was with him. And that's why I smile.