Hello guys, I know my checking in has been random lately. Working FT and my youngest difficult child have kept me crazy busy. So I am at pivotal point with youngest difficult child (15/BiPolar (BP)). He was in hospital right b4 New Years for depression & agression and there recommendation was residential. I went to see one residential that is local to me and it scared the heck out of me. I need some gently butt kicks here guys, I know @ 15 something has to give, he just snapped my new lap top in 1/2 this past weekend after I shut his phone off for blowing off a counseling appointment. I am weary, but so darned scared. I am getting a tatoo of a scapegoat, between my x (aka "y"), my oldest difficult child and Youngest difficult child, everything is always my fault and I am a terrible person! I am starting to get a complex here. I am home sick today and I am not doing anything I should be, but I am being completely selfish and vegging all day!