Steely, you made some really great realizations in the recent past. Draw on those now - have faith that the peace and serenity you felt then WILL come back.
Sending many gentle hugs and prayers for you right now.
NY....Steely - you are in my thoughts and prayers! I know you can hang on and things will start on the uphill climb. They always do. Keep that thought!
Another HUG- from Virginia- Hang in there and re-group with difficult child- he'd been doing well, you just need to get adjusted to another phase now- you can do this....