babyblue31
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Today is november 2 and in 14 day it will a year ago that my patrick was murdered. I just realised that it was excally 1 month before my birthday.. I feel like I'm loseing my mind.. The tears start to come and takes all I have to hold them back cause I don't want our 4 yr old son to see me cry..
I feel like my whole world is coming down around me and I don't want the 16th to come. I guess I keep think that maybe it not real and it's all a dream.. My heart is breaken and I can't stop it and it hurts more and more as the 16th get closer..
I dream of him offened and it makes me miss him even more.. I still want to know why this had to happen... GOD I still love him.. I miss his touch, kiss, laugh,and him saying I love you....
I feel like my whole world is coming down around me and I don't want the 16th to come. I guess I keep think that maybe it not real and it's all a dream.. My heart is breaken and I can't stop it and it hurts more and more as the 16th get closer..
I dream of him offened and it makes me miss him even more.. I still want to know why this had to happen... GOD I still love him.. I miss his touch, kiss, laugh,and him saying I love you....