Today has been a very stressful day for my difficult child Emma. She woke up very disagreeable and did not want to brush teeth, brush hair, wear what I laid out etc, so it was not a huge surprise when I got the call from her school to come pick her up because she "was out of control again". The worst part is, I have started a new job recently and so I had to send my grandpa to go get her and now I am sitting at work missing her like crazy and just wanting to hold her and tell her it is going to be okay. I called Children's hospital ER and asked if it would be worth me bringing her there. She has not been diagnosed yet (appointment not until April 08) so it is really difficult to get someone to take me seriously. I am afraid if i take her to the ER tonight when she is relatively "okay" I will get the she looks fine to me speech and after a day like today - I, myself may have a complete meltdown as a result. I spoke with the Behavioral Specialist she sees at her school once a week and she said she believes Emma needs to be on medications. Like I said - my appointment is not until April 08 and I just don't know what to do. I want help for my baby!!!!!!! I want her to stop being confused and hurt and scared and angry and I don't know what to do. The director of her school is getting increasingly weary also and no one knows what to do when Emma has a meltdown. She is just inconsolable and with 100 other students in the school, they can't just revolve around Emma. I am just exhausted and brokenhearted and just needed to vent I suppose.