GinAndTonic
New Member
I'm resentful. I want my son to be able to do normal kid things, and I want to be able to do normal mom things.
I want to go to the playground without worrying that my son is going to push someone. I want to go to the grocery store and not worry that he's going to run away with the shopping cart and bash into someone. I want to be able to use the babysitting at my gym. I want to go out to eat with my family, even if it's just at a Denny's.
I want my son to be able to go to day care, and soccer classes, and music classes, and tae kwon do -- all things that he loved but that he's had to leave, because of his behavior.
I don't even do the normal abnormal-mom stuff. Like, I joined a support group for mothers of kids with special needs. But the childcare couldn't handle my son, so I don't get to go any more.
The stress is really getting to me. Right now my son is at preschool and my daughter is taking a nap. This is my ME time, when I either work (which I love) or just mess around on my computer. But I can't relax, and can't concentrate.
I don't want any more dirty looks from the bus driver, or snide comments from the school administrators, or comments -- even well-meant ones -- from strangers.
I'm tired feeling like I'm walking on eggshells. It's so stressful, all the time!
What should I do?
I want to go to the playground without worrying that my son is going to push someone. I want to go to the grocery store and not worry that he's going to run away with the shopping cart and bash into someone. I want to be able to use the babysitting at my gym. I want to go out to eat with my family, even if it's just at a Denny's.
I want my son to be able to go to day care, and soccer classes, and music classes, and tae kwon do -- all things that he loved but that he's had to leave, because of his behavior.
I don't even do the normal abnormal-mom stuff. Like, I joined a support group for mothers of kids with special needs. But the childcare couldn't handle my son, so I don't get to go any more.
The stress is really getting to me. Right now my son is at preschool and my daughter is taking a nap. This is my ME time, when I either work (which I love) or just mess around on my computer. But I can't relax, and can't concentrate.
I don't want any more dirty looks from the bus driver, or snide comments from the school administrators, or comments -- even well-meant ones -- from strangers.
I'm tired feeling like I'm walking on eggshells. It's so stressful, all the time!
What should I do?