Carlos has been mostly stable for two years from Seroquel, but yesterday he lost it. It's my fault. Seroquel was helping, but he was unable to feel guilt apparently when he took it. We started weaning him down and trying some natural treatments (which of course did NOT help) and as he got to zero he confessed everything under the sun he ever did wrong. I thought it was a good sign. He was controlling himself well, feeling guilt, I started to feel safe... and then... Yesterday he became very dangerously violent (he's only seven, by the way). I tried to restrain him the way our psychiatrist showed me, but he's getting strong now and it was very difficult. Somehow he injured my arm. I didn't know it was injured until my adrenaline finally leveled out last night. He punched me more times than I could count, destroyed everything he could get his hands on, and eventually escaped out his window. I called my husband to come home from work to help me and he picked Carlos up half a mile from our home. My nerves are shot completely. I know that I am to blame for a lot of this, but I feel like an abused spouse or something. If you have an abusive spouse you pack your bags and never look back, but when it's your child, what do you do? How do all of you calm down after something like this, and how do you mentally come to terms with it? The anger I feel is as intense this morning as it was yesterday and I just can't seem to get a grip today.