I've been an emotional wreck for the last week or so. Don't know if it's because I burnt the candle at both ends and ran out of wax or what. Anyhow, easy child is home for Spring Break. This morning I went downstairs to get the keys to the car from him since he used it last night. As I went down the stairs I got the old scent of boy. It should of been nothing, but it reminded me of Ant and his stoner friends so I had this flashback and started panicing to the point that I woke up easy child demanding if he's using. I know easy child isn't using anything. But that smell (and it wasn't pot it was sweaty boy smell) triggered this full-blown panic of "I knew it...All my kids have problems" I still have 3 weeks until my next therapist appointment and I really need it. My depression is getting bad and AD's and I don't get along. The last one helped with the depression but my blood pressure had a difference between the top and bottom of 10 points. And that was the one with the least side-effects. If I'm not depressed, I'm swimming in anger/rage. I'm heading to my Mom's tonight to use the treadmill. I figure an hour or so should release enough endorphins to help my mood. Then tomorrow, I'm taking a 1/2 day from work to go celebrate my friends b-day. Maybe that will help lift my mood for a while. Thanks for letting me vent.