....And I'm sitting at my desk at work crying; beating myself up for NOT doing that last year. I wanted my son to graduate high school so badly, so that at least he had a H/S diploma. All the while, knowing that he needed help and that I should have sent him away, but I was too scared. I put my fear first, instead of trying to help my child. I know you're going to say that what's done is done and that I should not play the 'would have/should have/could have' game, but the fact remains that I did nothing. Oh, I did try therapy with him on and off with-different therapists since 6th grade -- but I/we never stuck to it long enough. Since he was little, there was always a problem. He has a learning disability, and has had behavioral issues since he was small. I tried my best to search for help I guess I did not do enough. A lot of what I am going through is my fault. My son said to me about two weeks back, during an argument "stop being my friend and be a parent. You threaten and do nothing..you are pathetic". He was right....I could have done something so many times and did not. Sorry -- venting -- I had to get that out.. I'm just facing what I did/didn't do and it's coming to the surface emotionally.